Today was a shocker.
Huhu, why the heck does my family even subscribed to this silly newspaper that claims to be *raises two fingers at each hand and make wriggling motions* "The people's paper"?
Especially with their phrase called "According to some blogs" without any links?
A swift check towards all famous political blogs and I see nothing around.
Another swift check, and I found one in Rocky bro, and even then do I found a link to it. Click Original Source HERE. (and This is only one blogger, where are the other blogs?? Oh wait, according to Rocky, they took the comments out from that very same blog and name it as other blogs. What a disgrace.)
I wonder if the blogger would be a little pissed off. I sure would. Having such a credible newspaper to take out your blog post like that and not even giving you a nice credit. (aka linking you). What idiots. I bet they were too afraid by the PPPA perhaps that they had forgotten the fundamentals of attributing? And what the heck? A blog is public to everyone, so it is alright to just put the link there. Maybe they are afraid of the blogger getting more popularity than the newspaper itself.
And when I read the newspaper I thought it could be a BN insider because that newspaper was afraid to quote anyone in it. Of course I'd apologise for my misake, but then I realised that mistake before I post this. So, lalala, take that!
I really grew disappointed with this newspaper. Gone were the glory days when they ACTUALLY made real sense out of news making (note, Iraqi war and personal experiences), actually GOING around finding articles (Okay, I won't pin down on Startwo for this, kudos on their insights on the Tibetan rebellions), rather NOW when they only sit back, and fabricate their stories and quoting blogs as "anonymous sources".
Come on, be practical the mainstream media, blogs are MEANT for you to read, it's okay linking them, and emailing the said blogger for attribution. If we only want it to be heard within ourselves, we'll have a DIARY. Not a BLOG for all to READ. Right?
Sure, the bloggers MAY be anonymous, but if they put their emails there it is OKAY to find them. (Which got me thinking if I need to put my email on this blog)
Or maybe you just want to made blogs look bad again? So that politicians around can go back to not blogging after finding it such a tedious job to put in their very cramped schedule. The politicians will have another say by me after this because I can't stand the fact that they start putting up blogs only for show and not even putting any real post with news value. Like trying to find Opposition MPs that actually bribe? Wait? Don't have? Putting your personal on the blog even? Cannot?
Then don't be a blogger if that's the case. So just because the tsunami of internet ruled over your stupidity of controlling the one side of mainstream media, and you might get a reverse tsunami the next round. No freaking way will that happen when your mentality is that small.
Instead of that, try taking the bus, without the media presence or the train and feel for yourself the lives WE have to live each and any other day rather than sitting there wondering what do bloggers do to earn a place in the Parliament with the aid of Internet.
Oh wait, I think I'm digressing. Whoops.
Go back to that particular newspaper, I feel safe to say that coming this end of the year, I shall not go to that particular newspaper for internship. Sure I've heard of the payment there, and how good it is, but their command of language is laughable, their attributions are almost a joke, and they did not even verify their facts. Laziness domination perhaps? Or maybe too much pressure from every side to touch anything called "truth", "accuracy", and "public accountability"?
The Star, you have alot to explain about your lacklustre performance. After a new PM comes in, I see nothing but deterioration. What happened?
Is this the so-called Freedom of press?
Explain or continue to be laughed at. My respect for you is running thin. Really thin.
[Update at 8.05pm: Well it seems the website was rather quick to put up the original blog post. Well then, I hope that The Star would have had a better attribution next time, don't think that bloggers are "buffoons"]
Tea House Moon - Enya
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- Reminds me of cats (cause of YinJiun )
-Reminds me of dad
-Reminds me of peace and tranquility
-Reminds me of the countless hours I spent just looking at the moon
-Reminds me of relaxation (sorely needed)
-Reminds me of the inner me
-Reminds me of being me
-Reminds me of being romantic to Ephyon
-Reminds me of the waltz we made in an old playground
-Reminds me of the happy carefree times together
-Reminds me of cats (again)
Somehow, it'll always be associated with cats. But anyways, study week. Everything's vulnerable. Including me. Ciao.
-Reminds me of dad
-Reminds me of peace and tranquility
-Reminds me of the countless hours I spent just looking at the moon
-Reminds me of relaxation (sorely needed)
-Reminds me of the inner me
-Reminds me of being me
-Reminds me of being romantic to Ephyon
-Reminds me of the waltz we made in an old playground
-Reminds me of the happy carefree times together
-Reminds me of cats (again)
Somehow, it'll always be associated with cats. But anyways, study week. Everything's vulnerable. Including me. Ciao.
I'm thinking of...
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Starting a Section.
Just talking only about Rock bands.
Yep, I felt that after 2 years of blogging I should start paying tributes to rock bands I love and would like to have them known again. And having to actually conduct research for each rock bands and their songs, depicting each evolution. And in every rock band I researched, I would post a question at the end, and present my own opinions about how their songs changed from time to time. Don't worry, the question will be the same.
The Rocker Chick in Me, really wishes to express and do something about showing what real rock is. Which is why I will go and dig out songs from the past, with the aid of Wikipedia, and Youtube. I admit some of these epic songs is only known to me ONLY recently, due to my lack of exposure to real rock until much recently. (well, ever since I start university, which is, 2 years ago, ironic?). Well I do get exposed to rock, but embracing it was a totally different thing altogether.
So yeah, that is what I planned, and this will take some time. I need to hear from you guys about it first, whether personally or not. Note, I'd first start from the Western rock bands, then moved to maybe Taiwan and Japanese rock bands. So be patient for those who support bands from the Orient land.
Bands that are to be start research on: Bee Gees (They started out as a rock band mind you), Queen, Beatles.
Recent bands to be start research on: So far, maybe Red Hot Chilli Peppers, Good Charlotte, My Chemical Romance.
So just tell me what do you think? Is it worth continuing? Cause I noticed hip hop is what the young ones embracing right now, but I just want to do my part and just write something cool about Rock.
Please tell me ya?
Just talking only about Rock bands.
Yep, I felt that after 2 years of blogging I should start paying tributes to rock bands I love and would like to have them known again. And having to actually conduct research for each rock bands and their songs, depicting each evolution. And in every rock band I researched, I would post a question at the end, and present my own opinions about how their songs changed from time to time. Don't worry, the question will be the same.
The Rocker Chick in Me, really wishes to express and do something about showing what real rock is. Which is why I will go and dig out songs from the past, with the aid of Wikipedia, and Youtube. I admit some of these epic songs is only known to me ONLY recently, due to my lack of exposure to real rock until much recently. (well, ever since I start university, which is, 2 years ago, ironic?). Well I do get exposed to rock, but embracing it was a totally different thing altogether.
So yeah, that is what I planned, and this will take some time. I need to hear from you guys about it first, whether personally or not. Note, I'd first start from the Western rock bands, then moved to maybe Taiwan and Japanese rock bands. So be patient for those who support bands from the Orient land.
Bands that are to be start research on: Bee Gees (They started out as a rock band mind you), Queen, Beatles.
Recent bands to be start research on: So far, maybe Red Hot Chilli Peppers, Good Charlotte, My Chemical Romance.
So just tell me what do you think? Is it worth continuing? Cause I noticed hip hop is what the young ones embracing right now, but I just want to do my part and just write something cool about Rock.
Please tell me ya?
Churns
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The wind blew her face. It was all good. She sat at a pompous armchair, laying her petite body on it. Mmm....it was all good. Being able to sleep on scented leather seems like the next best thing to do at the moment for her. Having rushed a major project that might cost her career, she was finally done with it after checking and rechecking to make sure she got all 100% done. And she, can finally able to enjoy the warmth of her new house.
*Click!*
In comes another person. Okay, so the house is not solely hers. Her fiance, who had just won the Pulitzer Prize, came in to look at his sleeping love. He went passed a picture of both of them standing at Mount Kilimanjaro waving to the world of their achievements. Oh, the smile of that man. He swoons all ladies without trying. And the girl, equally beautiful, with the exception of her height. But her resolve was as tough as any steel around.
He can't help it, he went to kiss her forehead, caressing her as she sleep so soundly over that new armchair. He thinks he was the luckiest man in the world. 'Soon, this beautiful woman will be my wife', says his mind. 'I need some hair for that day, it won't be long till the wedding comes', he thinks, as he ruffles what's left on his scalp.
His hand was carrying that Pulitzer Prize, but this costs him to lose dignity, and image. He was bombed in the war, while getting the latest footage for his television company. He survived, with all his limbs attached, but all scarred. Most skin were gone. His face, unrecognisable. As he walked past the audience today to get the prize, What was what he used to call his colleagues, dare not look at him in the eye. What was what he used to call "proud" of his own television company, there wasn't a single sight of the president to come down to greet him. He felt hopeless, but he still held his head up high and went up to thank the presenter giving him that prize. He looked, at the people who found it hard to stare at him and begin:
"My friends, colleagues and everyone else attending, I thank you for taking time out to attend this prize-giving ceremony, to a retired broadcast journalist, who's life was already destroyed, given that he would not have the chance to work anymore. Because of the face.
I had no qualms and I was physically fit. I could go on to serve this company. But all they do was led me to the exit door. For fear of ensuement over the destruction of the image. I could not go out, and go around asking questions to normal citizens. I would be chased away because of this face.
But here I am, standing here alone, receiving this honour, despite all the stares I get, from you, you and you. It is truly an honour to walk away from the fear of scorn and insults, and continue my career and my life as a normal man. I have a fiance, currently rushing her project and all I had was her now. As long as she's there, I'm not afraid to walk around the streets with so many around staring at me. I'm not afraid of people looking at me. But, to the audience, I ask for you to give me a chance, not sympathy, to continue pursuing mass communication again."
He bowed, and received a standing ovation.
He also had offers from other companies that wanted his servicemenship.
He also had people coming to him, one of them, an amateur journalist, he took out his recorder and asked "What made you fearless towards the eyes of the society now? After two years of seclusion?"
He smiled that very same smile after his hike at Mt. Kilimanjaro and said "My fiancee. She was my first step out of seclusion"
And that was what she did. The first thing he saw after stepping out of the visitor's pavement, was to see her crying and tugging him into her. His heart broke. He knew this is going to happen. But that's okay, he knew he had to annul the marriage. He can't bear to see his love just live with him like that.
He then smiled and say "It's okay, hun....I know you must have been worried about the..."
She looked at him and say "It IS STILL YOU! Forget it! I'm staying with you all the time!"
He looked shocked and just gaped at her.
She said, with determination "I was hoping to see something that I can hope to use to recognise you, and I do, it was your smile, it is still bright as always. As long as you are here, I know I love you and I love you always."
She hugged him tightly again, leaving him speechless.
Fast forward to now, his fiancee has just woken up from sleeping.
"Oh, I haven't felt so fresh after so long. Have you been here for long hun?", she kissed and hugged him.
"Yeah, but it's okay I knew you were tired", he said, snuggling her face.
"Hey I want to see that!" she said, snatching away his Pulitzer.
He smiled again, and started telling her the stories he had during the ceremony.
It was all good.
(Inspired by a story of the marriage between a beautiful bride, and a war soldier, who came back with a deformed face after the war. Do not let go of anything. Do not give up over negative stares)
Before The War
After the War
*Click!*
In comes another person. Okay, so the house is not solely hers. Her fiance, who had just won the Pulitzer Prize, came in to look at his sleeping love. He went passed a picture of both of them standing at Mount Kilimanjaro waving to the world of their achievements. Oh, the smile of that man. He swoons all ladies without trying. And the girl, equally beautiful, with the exception of her height. But her resolve was as tough as any steel around.
He can't help it, he went to kiss her forehead, caressing her as she sleep so soundly over that new armchair. He thinks he was the luckiest man in the world. 'Soon, this beautiful woman will be my wife', says his mind. 'I need some hair for that day, it won't be long till the wedding comes', he thinks, as he ruffles what's left on his scalp.
His hand was carrying that Pulitzer Prize, but this costs him to lose dignity, and image. He was bombed in the war, while getting the latest footage for his television company. He survived, with all his limbs attached, but all scarred. Most skin were gone. His face, unrecognisable. As he walked past the audience today to get the prize, What was what he used to call his colleagues, dare not look at him in the eye. What was what he used to call "proud" of his own television company, there wasn't a single sight of the president to come down to greet him. He felt hopeless, but he still held his head up high and went up to thank the presenter giving him that prize. He looked, at the people who found it hard to stare at him and begin:
"My friends, colleagues and everyone else attending, I thank you for taking time out to attend this prize-giving ceremony, to a retired broadcast journalist, who's life was already destroyed, given that he would not have the chance to work anymore. Because of the face.
I had no qualms and I was physically fit. I could go on to serve this company. But all they do was led me to the exit door. For fear of ensuement over the destruction of the image. I could not go out, and go around asking questions to normal citizens. I would be chased away because of this face.
But here I am, standing here alone, receiving this honour, despite all the stares I get, from you, you and you. It is truly an honour to walk away from the fear of scorn and insults, and continue my career and my life as a normal man. I have a fiance, currently rushing her project and all I had was her now. As long as she's there, I'm not afraid to walk around the streets with so many around staring at me. I'm not afraid of people looking at me. But, to the audience, I ask for you to give me a chance, not sympathy, to continue pursuing mass communication again."
He bowed, and received a standing ovation.
He also had offers from other companies that wanted his servicemenship.
He also had people coming to him, one of them, an amateur journalist, he took out his recorder and asked "What made you fearless towards the eyes of the society now? After two years of seclusion?"
He smiled that very same smile after his hike at Mt. Kilimanjaro and said "My fiancee. She was my first step out of seclusion"
And that was what she did. The first thing he saw after stepping out of the visitor's pavement, was to see her crying and tugging him into her. His heart broke. He knew this is going to happen. But that's okay, he knew he had to annul the marriage. He can't bear to see his love just live with him like that.
He then smiled and say "It's okay, hun....I know you must have been worried about the..."
She looked at him and say "It IS STILL YOU! Forget it! I'm staying with you all the time!"
He looked shocked and just gaped at her.
She said, with determination "I was hoping to see something that I can hope to use to recognise you, and I do, it was your smile, it is still bright as always. As long as you are here, I know I love you and I love you always."
She hugged him tightly again, leaving him speechless.
Fast forward to now, his fiancee has just woken up from sleeping.
"Oh, I haven't felt so fresh after so long. Have you been here for long hun?", she kissed and hugged him.
"Yeah, but it's okay I knew you were tired", he said, snuggling her face.
"Hey I want to see that!" she said, snatching away his Pulitzer.
He smiled again, and started telling her the stories he had during the ceremony.
It was all good.
(Inspired by a story of the marriage between a beautiful bride, and a war soldier, who came back with a deformed face after the war. Do not let go of anything. Do not give up over negative stares)
(Updated 8th April 2008: Apparently not many have seen the pictures of what happened to the loving couple. Well, here's proof. My character at least had all limbs. This man, lost not only his face, but also hair, and arm. Here are the pictures)
Before The War
After the WarI know I'd be digressing here, but this is how a true marriage ends, but this is only a tip of the iceberg. War effects are everywhere. I know she can live with this man despite his looks. But I don't want to see anyone going through humiliation like this. Do you?
So please, the next time someone else want to declare war, think before you say you support them.
That's all I can say.
The pictures had spoken more than just a thousand words.
Current Addictions.....(With Youtube Aids)
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1) Cabal Online SEA
I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE THIS GAME! AND EPHYON'S IN IT. WE MAKE A GREAT TEAM! WHEE! Go google Cabal Online and check out how nice are their games man. Woohoo, I've so far seen anyone who was not hooked after I showed them the trailer. But woohoo, I love the game. And those actions performed are so true. Whee! XD. Go try it, and if you like it, I'll give you my name and we can become buddies. But I love this game! =D. I'm so addicted to it that I'd blog about it. Oh wait, it's supposed to be because it's my current addictions. Whee. CABAL ONLINE!
2) Amaranth by Nightwish (With More Cabal-ism!)
This song is very nice. And it really suited the atmosphere portrayed in Cabal Online. Wizard really rules because my boyfriend is one in the game. I'm more of the melee type, therefore I chose Force Blader! Yeah, but the wizard have one of the sickest spells around. Anyways, digresses aside, this song is really awesome. It's Amaranth by Nightwish, a Finnish rock band. I have a thing for European rock bands because they don't suck. No offense to American rock bands but they don't have the knack to mix different elements to make their rock songs even cooler, and that it doesn't sound like any pop song bouncing in song charts. This is really rock! Woohoo! Go rock your socks man! I'm a rocker chick to the core. Anything with rock and you can count me in it.
3) How to be Series (Show you the funniest one)
This is How to be Emo. Super freakingly funny. The funniest in the series to me, but check out their other videos too. They'll sure make your day happier instead of the "intended" emo-ness.
4) Mika's Happy Ending
So refreshing to hear such a song in the radio charts instead of thumping hip hop sounds or when I wanted to chill off from rocking. Who cares if he's abit gay? Who cares if he sounds like James Blunt? This song is just right for me. This is the one song that accompanied me while I continued my work without having Ephyon with me, especially after we have a fight and that I didn't want to talk to him. I think this song will be one of the better favourites for me. It might not be radio friendly, but it's mood-friendly. Another song to recommend for y'all out there
So there, my four current addictons. What's yours for the moment? =)
I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE THIS GAME! AND EPHYON'S IN IT. WE MAKE A GREAT TEAM! WHEE! Go google Cabal Online and check out how nice are their games man. Woohoo, I've so far seen anyone who was not hooked after I showed them the trailer. But woohoo, I love the game. And those actions performed are so true. Whee! XD. Go try it, and if you like it, I'll give you my name and we can become buddies. But I love this game! =D. I'm so addicted to it that I'd blog about it. Oh wait, it's supposed to be because it's my current addictions. Whee. CABAL ONLINE!
2) Amaranth by Nightwish (With More Cabal-ism!)
This song is very nice. And it really suited the atmosphere portrayed in Cabal Online. Wizard really rules because my boyfriend is one in the game. I'm more of the melee type, therefore I chose Force Blader! Yeah, but the wizard have one of the sickest spells around. Anyways, digresses aside, this song is really awesome. It's Amaranth by Nightwish, a Finnish rock band. I have a thing for European rock bands because they don't suck. No offense to American rock bands but they don't have the knack to mix different elements to make their rock songs even cooler, and that it doesn't sound like any pop song bouncing in song charts. This is really rock! Woohoo! Go rock your socks man! I'm a rocker chick to the core. Anything with rock and you can count me in it.
3) How to be Series (Show you the funniest one)
This is How to be Emo. Super freakingly funny. The funniest in the series to me, but check out their other videos too. They'll sure make your day happier instead of the "intended" emo-ness.
4) Mika's Happy Ending
So refreshing to hear such a song in the radio charts instead of thumping hip hop sounds or when I wanted to chill off from rocking. Who cares if he's abit gay? Who cares if he sounds like James Blunt? This song is just right for me. This is the one song that accompanied me while I continued my work without having Ephyon with me, especially after we have a fight and that I didn't want to talk to him. I think this song will be one of the better favourites for me. It might not be radio friendly, but it's mood-friendly. Another song to recommend for y'all out there
So there, my four current addictons. What's yours for the moment? =)
You know it when....
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You want to have a hug from your boyfriend the moment you woke up, but he scowls at you because you kind of shouted at him over his good intention.
Saw a few blogs about relationships. None of them good.
See my own relationship. Based on false image. No longer heart to heart talks. It's hard to continue on.
Everyone thinks we can go on. I beg to differ. I can't confide anymore.
Yes I want you to see this. Because I don't know if you realise, but other than saying "I love you" and other baby talks, we do not have any heart to heart talks anymore.
It could be because we are busy, but this is straining me. In particular. And many other factors like the strain of your class relations and the amount of workload, plus the already many dissatisfactions between us.
Look, I really can't bear the emptiness. We do talk, but I always feel empty inside. No longer your hug makes me all warm inside. No longer I feel I deserve anymore pampering. No longer that I anticipate to see you.
I'm losing it.
I don't know if it is worth losing you.
I fucking hate this feeling.
I don't want to be confused no more.
Give me an answer. Or I'll do it my way.
Saw a few blogs about relationships. None of them good.
See my own relationship. Based on false image. No longer heart to heart talks. It's hard to continue on.
Everyone thinks we can go on. I beg to differ. I can't confide anymore.
Yes I want you to see this. Because I don't know if you realise, but other than saying "I love you" and other baby talks, we do not have any heart to heart talks anymore.
It could be because we are busy, but this is straining me. In particular. And many other factors like the strain of your class relations and the amount of workload, plus the already many dissatisfactions between us.
Look, I really can't bear the emptiness. We do talk, but I always feel empty inside. No longer your hug makes me all warm inside. No longer I feel I deserve anymore pampering. No longer that I anticipate to see you.
I'm losing it.
I don't know if it is worth losing you.
I fucking hate this feeling.
I don't want to be confused no more.
Give me an answer. Or I'll do it my way.
Warning: Non-mandarin speakers might not understand this
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Take a GOOD look at this vid:
Finish it?
Understand what it meant? (Ok sorry for those who do not understand Mandarin but this is basically about Taiwan, and Ma Ying-jeou, and the presidential elections that has just ended last week.)
It is DAMN powerful (to me)
I had no idea the message in that commercial is THIS strong. It was encouraging the people to vote for this guy, called Ma (horses are around that ad for you to guess), and he is encouraging the voters to get their ass off to vote. Yea!! The power of advertisements and commercialism!
Not surprisingly, he won. The new president of Taiwan.
But, he didn't invite any of the mayors and district officers from Tainan, comprising of Kaohsiung and the like. Although I think he did not because Tainan was a very strong territory of the Democratic Progressive Party, comprising of the ex-President Chen Shui Bian. Although it will have a better chance at portraying a balanced image of all supporters from all areas instead of the ones already belonging to him.
The political wind sure is strong blowing in so many parts of the world. Starting from Australia (Kevin Rudd), Pakistan (Pakistan People's Party by the late Benazir Bhutto), Malaysia (Start working PKR+DAP+PAS coalition government =.=), China (Okay, I will not go into the insights of the unrest in Tibet, even though I'd like to see them wring free of the country), and now, Taiwan. (evil corrupt bastards going down!)
I bet half of why it won was contributed to the media. And unlike Malaysian mainstream media, their balanced reporting was obviously not a joke. Unlike our stupid one-sided coverage which turns people off, They frequently organised forums to discuss about Taiwan's issues (at one point they were even discussing on the evolution of the word "LP". wtf??? Serious, I was a TVBS fanatic.)
But potilicial associations aside, this one video clip, if it wasn't for its associations with KuoMinTang, it would have been a powerful clip to call for the voters to vote. And it was true to the word, I'm not sure what kind of promises do they have for Taiwan, but they do make a very good impression.
And that's all they need to convince voters don't they?
Well, we'll see.
But just enjoy the video for the moment =D.
(Sorry, this was supposed to be a post straightaway after the presidential elections, but got my mood destroyed halfway blogging it. So it was delayed till now.)
Finish it?
Understand what it meant? (Ok sorry for those who do not understand Mandarin but this is basically about Taiwan, and Ma Ying-jeou, and the presidential elections that has just ended last week.)
It is DAMN powerful (to me)
I had no idea the message in that commercial is THIS strong. It was encouraging the people to vote for this guy, called Ma (horses are around that ad for you to guess), and he is encouraging the voters to get their ass off to vote. Yea!! The power of advertisements and commercialism!
Not surprisingly, he won. The new president of Taiwan.
But, he didn't invite any of the mayors and district officers from Tainan, comprising of Kaohsiung and the like. Although I think he did not because Tainan was a very strong territory of the Democratic Progressive Party, comprising of the ex-President Chen Shui Bian. Although it will have a better chance at portraying a balanced image of all supporters from all areas instead of the ones already belonging to him.
The political wind sure is strong blowing in so many parts of the world. Starting from Australia (Kevin Rudd), Pakistan (Pakistan People's Party by the late Benazir Bhutto), Malaysia (Start working PKR+DAP+PAS coalition government =.=), China (Okay, I will not go into the insights of the unrest in Tibet, even though I'd like to see them wring free of the country), and now, Taiwan. (evil corrupt bastards going down!)
I bet half of why it won was contributed to the media. And unlike Malaysian mainstream media, their balanced reporting was obviously not a joke. Unlike our stupid one-sided coverage which turns people off, They frequently organised forums to discuss about Taiwan's issues (at one point they were even discussing on the evolution of the word "LP". wtf??? Serious, I was a TVBS fanatic.)
But potilicial associations aside, this one video clip, if it wasn't for its associations with KuoMinTang, it would have been a powerful clip to call for the voters to vote. And it was true to the word, I'm not sure what kind of promises do they have for Taiwan, but they do make a very good impression.
And that's all they need to convince voters don't they?
Well, we'll see.
But just enjoy the video for the moment =D.
(Sorry, this was supposed to be a post straightaway after the presidential elections, but got my mood destroyed halfway blogging it. So it was delayed till now.)
A grandfather's legacy. Untold till now.
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My paternal grandfather passed away on Wednesday morning due to lung cancer.
I wasn't feeling that much of a grief before this, as I had faced death worst than this. But as part of the family I'm obliged to attend the wake service like many others. I still went on for the lecture, attended the sports event for a while for my upcoming assignments, and then left for the house at night.
It wasn't much of a grandeur affair, but my mother insisted that it will be, seeing that apparently from what was told and said, grandfather was a great contributor to the chinese community Klang. (Yea, if there's anyone of you reading chinese newspapers, particularly Sin Chew, you'd know who I am and what I'm talking about. I'm still keeping my identity secret. kthxbai)
Little did I know his significance and his presence for the Klang community. The only much I can muster were the many times I had stayed back in Klang to live with my grandparents, due to my "stupidity" of wanting to experience life outside my parent's hands. It was mostly just normal life, other than finding it fun to follow my grandmother around to Klang's Senior Club and watching them play mahjong, learning how to dance (line dancing, senior's favourite), watching them practise for big dinners sometimes. It was in Klang that I found my love for performing arts, it was also in Klang where I felt like an outsider, but still mostly accepted by the elders, due to my relationship with my grandfather.
From the two days of looking through the funeral process, more and more stories of grandfather came up. He was the founder of Hin Hwa Primary School ć Žćć°ćŠ, being a headmaster there for a long time, even during the times when my father was a pupil there. He was the chairman of the board of directors of Hin Hwa High School, Chairman of the Hokkien clan in Klang, member of the Selangor Teachers Association, Chairman of the Senior's Club in Klang and Treasurer of the Guan Yin Temple at Simpang Lima. Which, basically, he was a massive contributor for the Hokkien clan in Klang, and also one of the biggest contributors to the Education Sector in Klang!
Wei, He did so much but I don't remember seeing him receiving any "Datukship" "Datuk Seri-ship", "Tan Sri-ship" and the like. What's this? With all efforts combined he could well be very well-known with many kinds of titles by now.
But I guess he's also humble in a way. I wasn't too sure. I had never got around asking about his past. My late father did not tell much either. But one thing for sure, their family environment was rather well-off, which my mom used to chide my father for "being pampered and did not know what suffering is like". Which is also true, because my whole paternal relatives turn out to be excellent students who also came out working in various "predictable" fields, like doctor, lawyer, businessmen, etc etc.
Same goes for the grandchildren, some of my cousins came out to be doctors, some are studying law, pharmacy, you know, the very "predictable" kind. Only I was the extraordinary. I didn't venture into science or anything "normal", my study was that "out of the norm" and that no one has ever expected me to be in. Of course, considering what they saw in my personality they were very much convinced that I'm suitable to be a journalist.
But it had come to show how much they were expecting of my family, my extended family that were from my grandfather. He came up with the legacy of his own, having his descendents to continue on the proud surname that was ringing around everyone's ears. (in Klang at least) And all of them were sad to see him go. Even I was too, considering how estranged our relationship became 7 years ago when his son died of a sudden death. He was considered a hero, and he had received a hero's sending.
So I'll talk about the grandeur part now. You know how when different associations gather together to give the last respects to the dead? Well, that happens for mine too. Various people from the different associations from Klang and Selangor all came to pay the last respects for him. Hin Hwa has even had school choirs to come and send him off with a song called "ä»„äœ äžșèŁ" (loosely translated as "Proud of You"). That brought alot of tears to us, the immediate families of his. I tried to hold it back but the lyrics of the song was depicting on how they were grateful and thankful to the founder of the school. And as I looked at the coffin. I'm literally denying loudly in my mind. This is my grandfather, not some local hero! He was only a man who did many great things, but not something like what Jesus Christ did to save the slaves, or the Buddha who venture into deep thoughts to save someone else. This is only my grandfather.
But as the hearst went onto the car and drove off to the crematorium, with the school band leading the march in front (yea, a marching band, which according to my foundation mates who were students there, that was their biggest achievement), my heart sank. He really did something for the community. But from my point of view, he'll always be my grandfather. The one that smiles to every visitor he sees, the one who patiently explains the reasons of some things that happen, which I had hoped to rebuke now that I understand further. But also the same one who was quiet during my father's funeral, the one who did not ask how I am now, the one who still smoked despite having cancer (I think he didn't know, but still, he's sick and he still smoke?). So, currently I'm having mixed feelings. Things will run differently again now that the other male from the same family was gone.
I wonder if I'll ever looked back and read this, the legacy of my grandfather. The man who made the Chinese had another school to study. The man who helped rebuild a temple which served as a sanctuary for many. And lastly, the man who started what made my surname famous in that one area called Klang. I wonder if being part of that legacy was something worth being proud of, or just accept that fate and pressure.
But for now, as I had looked and see the coffin going into the furnace, only the words "Rest In Peace" comes into mind. My grandfather left a legacy, but his soul and body are being returned to the world.
I will not forget you. Your deeds are great, even though I do not really know them. Rest In Peace Gong Gong.
I wasn't feeling that much of a grief before this, as I had faced death worst than this. But as part of the family I'm obliged to attend the wake service like many others. I still went on for the lecture, attended the sports event for a while for my upcoming assignments, and then left for the house at night.
It wasn't much of a grandeur affair, but my mother insisted that it will be, seeing that apparently from what was told and said, grandfather was a great contributor to the chinese community Klang. (Yea, if there's anyone of you reading chinese newspapers, particularly Sin Chew, you'd know who I am and what I'm talking about. I'm still keeping my identity secret. kthxbai)
Little did I know his significance and his presence for the Klang community. The only much I can muster were the many times I had stayed back in Klang to live with my grandparents, due to my "stupidity" of wanting to experience life outside my parent's hands. It was mostly just normal life, other than finding it fun to follow my grandmother around to Klang's Senior Club and watching them play mahjong, learning how to dance (line dancing, senior's favourite), watching them practise for big dinners sometimes. It was in Klang that I found my love for performing arts, it was also in Klang where I felt like an outsider, but still mostly accepted by the elders, due to my relationship with my grandfather.
From the two days of looking through the funeral process, more and more stories of grandfather came up. He was the founder of Hin Hwa Primary School ć Žćć°ćŠ, being a headmaster there for a long time, even during the times when my father was a pupil there. He was the chairman of the board of directors of Hin Hwa High School, Chairman of the Hokkien clan in Klang, member of the Selangor Teachers Association, Chairman of the Senior's Club in Klang and Treasurer of the Guan Yin Temple at Simpang Lima. Which, basically, he was a massive contributor for the Hokkien clan in Klang, and also one of the biggest contributors to the Education Sector in Klang!
Wei, He did so much but I don't remember seeing him receiving any "Datukship" "Datuk Seri-ship", "Tan Sri-ship" and the like. What's this? With all efforts combined he could well be very well-known with many kinds of titles by now.
But I guess he's also humble in a way. I wasn't too sure. I had never got around asking about his past. My late father did not tell much either. But one thing for sure, their family environment was rather well-off, which my mom used to chide my father for "being pampered and did not know what suffering is like". Which is also true, because my whole paternal relatives turn out to be excellent students who also came out working in various "predictable" fields, like doctor, lawyer, businessmen, etc etc.
Same goes for the grandchildren, some of my cousins came out to be doctors, some are studying law, pharmacy, you know, the very "predictable" kind. Only I was the extraordinary. I didn't venture into science or anything "normal", my study was that "out of the norm" and that no one has ever expected me to be in. Of course, considering what they saw in my personality they were very much convinced that I'm suitable to be a journalist.
But it had come to show how much they were expecting of my family, my extended family that were from my grandfather. He came up with the legacy of his own, having his descendents to continue on the proud surname that was ringing around everyone's ears. (in Klang at least) And all of them were sad to see him go. Even I was too, considering how estranged our relationship became 7 years ago when his son died of a sudden death. He was considered a hero, and he had received a hero's sending.
So I'll talk about the grandeur part now. You know how when different associations gather together to give the last respects to the dead? Well, that happens for mine too. Various people from the different associations from Klang and Selangor all came to pay the last respects for him. Hin Hwa has even had school choirs to come and send him off with a song called "ä»„äœ äžșèŁ" (loosely translated as "Proud of You"). That brought alot of tears to us, the immediate families of his. I tried to hold it back but the lyrics of the song was depicting on how they were grateful and thankful to the founder of the school. And as I looked at the coffin. I'm literally denying loudly in my mind. This is my grandfather, not some local hero! He was only a man who did many great things, but not something like what Jesus Christ did to save the slaves, or the Buddha who venture into deep thoughts to save someone else. This is only my grandfather.
But as the hearst went onto the car and drove off to the crematorium, with the school band leading the march in front (yea, a marching band, which according to my foundation mates who were students there, that was their biggest achievement), my heart sank. He really did something for the community. But from my point of view, he'll always be my grandfather. The one that smiles to every visitor he sees, the one who patiently explains the reasons of some things that happen, which I had hoped to rebuke now that I understand further. But also the same one who was quiet during my father's funeral, the one who did not ask how I am now, the one who still smoked despite having cancer (I think he didn't know, but still, he's sick and he still smoke?). So, currently I'm having mixed feelings. Things will run differently again now that the other male from the same family was gone.
I wonder if I'll ever looked back and read this, the legacy of my grandfather. The man who made the Chinese had another school to study. The man who helped rebuild a temple which served as a sanctuary for many. And lastly, the man who started what made my surname famous in that one area called Klang. I wonder if being part of that legacy was something worth being proud of, or just accept that fate and pressure.
But for now, as I had looked and see the coffin going into the furnace, only the words "Rest In Peace" comes into mind. My grandfather left a legacy, but his soul and body are being returned to the world.
I will not forget you. Your deeds are great, even though I do not really know them. Rest In Peace Gong Gong.
Rewalking the path
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Definition of Fragile, in Wikitionary's words:
easily broken or destroyed, and thus often of subtle or intricate structure
The chemist synthesizes a fragile molecule.
The UN tries to maintain the fragile peace process in the region.
He is a very fragile person and gets easily depressed.
Definition of Fragile, in Ephyon's words:
A person who has been through alot and gets hurt very easily, easily emotional.
"And I love you the most" (Ephyon when trying to clear my head over his definition of 'fragility')
I'm currently recuperating from the multiple wounds suffered inside me due to schoolwork, misunderstandings, heartaches. Trying my very best to be genuinely happy.
Now I'm wondering whether how have you guys perceived my blog to be like. Over the years, I've tried many kinds of style of blogging and so far a lot were commented and not commented. I do not really see it as my personal blog, therefore whenever I reveal something private it's always let people down because I only reveal the obselete part of it. But right now I don't feel like blogging much, so I've conjured something up and let you guys decide.
Please vote and let me know.
easily broken or destroyed, and thus often of subtle or intricate structure
The chemist synthesizes a fragile molecule.
The UN tries to maintain the fragile peace process in the region.
He is a very fragile person and gets easily depressed.
Definition of Fragile, in Ephyon's words:
A person who has been through alot and gets hurt very easily, easily emotional.
"And I love you the most" (Ephyon when trying to clear my head over his definition of 'fragility')
I'm currently recuperating from the multiple wounds suffered inside me due to schoolwork, misunderstandings, heartaches. Trying my very best to be genuinely happy.
Now I'm wondering whether how have you guys perceived my blog to be like. Over the years, I've tried many kinds of style of blogging and so far a lot were commented and not commented. I do not really see it as my personal blog, therefore whenever I reveal something private it's always let people down because I only reveal the obselete part of it. But right now I don't feel like blogging much, so I've conjured something up and let you guys decide.
Please vote and let me know.
Dear blog
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It's so ironic how I have to call you this ain't it? That I promised to only use this channel to highlight about political and social issues which I felt that needs some talking and clarifying about. Never thought this channel would be the only space for me to talk about myself.
I only feel that I don't have any true friends left you know? None I can trust, none that volunteers to listen, none that resist my anger for the sake of listening attentively.
A lot of them heard half of it, and dismiss half of the other claiming that I shouted, being rude, being irrational, unreasonable, and most of all, that they didn't want to hear.
How remarkable. And these people were the ones who said they were willing to listen if I have ever had any problems, that I can feel free to call them or talk to them.
Yesterday they reprimanded me for taking my anger out on them. That they are still willing to listen. But just don't take my anger out on them.
So dear blog, I'm taught to rant and complain, but calmly, without emotion, and most importantly, do not expect them to have a calm reaction in return.
This is the definition of friends in this time of my life. If that is the case, what good of me to continue complaining to them or rant, if they were not willing to understand the tone of my voice, not willing to acknowledge the battered heart that continued to bleed, not willing to see the fact that all I needed was.....just a silent channel....
I understand now. A silent channel. I needed a one-sided confession. I needed someone, or something where I can pour out to, without actually rebuking me back.
Call me emo if you want, anonymous flamers. I am being emo nearing the brink of seclusion. I'm thinking of excusing myself from interacting with them. I can never understand what's going through my mind.
And to think...I had patiently listened to them while trying to help them with solutions. Sure, theirs might not be a blast of anger or a fit of rage. Call it whatever you want. I don't care now. If they think it is unfair, then what of me being unfair for getting cold shoulders and cold-hard stares and glares filled with words of sacarsm whenever I tried asking about them.
Dear blog, I hate to admit this, but they threw my deed out of the window the moment they hear my rant over what they presume was a small thing and a sign of my ignorance that caused my own pain, anger, frustration, and suffering. Yes, I should have consulted them instead of relying totally on my boyfriend's 100% true facts simply because he's a long term resident there and I choose to shut away my window to other opinions. That was how it sounds like.
Sigh....maybe I shouldn't count my blessings. I shouldn't even count the deeds I've ever did. I'm just another miscreant being created by the Almighty God. Just another pitiful human passing by his/her life without looking back of its value.
I'm looking back, and I achieved the greatest when in seclusion, in no contact with humans seeking to put me down upon hearing another rant of mine. That was how my value of life is, to be looked down upon and getting some great achievements I've never received in my entire life. It's always that pattern. It runs in the family, the eldest daughters of the family.
Perhaps, I should stop arguing and start accepting my fate....I'm always an island, because no one understands me.
And they say No man is an island.
I am no man.....I don't even think I'm human to start with
So, in end of this, good bye to whoever I thought I hold dear most, only to realise, that they will never can understand me....
I shouldn't have come out......
I only feel that I don't have any true friends left you know? None I can trust, none that volunteers to listen, none that resist my anger for the sake of listening attentively.
A lot of them heard half of it, and dismiss half of the other claiming that I shouted, being rude, being irrational, unreasonable, and most of all, that they didn't want to hear.
How remarkable. And these people were the ones who said they were willing to listen if I have ever had any problems, that I can feel free to call them or talk to them.
Yesterday they reprimanded me for taking my anger out on them. That they are still willing to listen. But just don't take my anger out on them.
So dear blog, I'm taught to rant and complain, but calmly, without emotion, and most importantly, do not expect them to have a calm reaction in return.
This is the definition of friends in this time of my life. If that is the case, what good of me to continue complaining to them or rant, if they were not willing to understand the tone of my voice, not willing to acknowledge the battered heart that continued to bleed, not willing to see the fact that all I needed was.....just a silent channel....
I understand now. A silent channel. I needed a one-sided confession. I needed someone, or something where I can pour out to, without actually rebuking me back.
Call me emo if you want, anonymous flamers. I am being emo nearing the brink of seclusion. I'm thinking of excusing myself from interacting with them. I can never understand what's going through my mind.
And to think...I had patiently listened to them while trying to help them with solutions. Sure, theirs might not be a blast of anger or a fit of rage. Call it whatever you want. I don't care now. If they think it is unfair, then what of me being unfair for getting cold shoulders and cold-hard stares and glares filled with words of sacarsm whenever I tried asking about them.
Dear blog, I hate to admit this, but they threw my deed out of the window the moment they hear my rant over what they presume was a small thing and a sign of my ignorance that caused my own pain, anger, frustration, and suffering. Yes, I should have consulted them instead of relying totally on my boyfriend's 100% true facts simply because he's a long term resident there and I choose to shut away my window to other opinions. That was how it sounds like.
Sigh....maybe I shouldn't count my blessings. I shouldn't even count the deeds I've ever did. I'm just another miscreant being created by the Almighty God. Just another pitiful human passing by his/her life without looking back of its value.
I'm looking back, and I achieved the greatest when in seclusion, in no contact with humans seeking to put me down upon hearing another rant of mine. That was how my value of life is, to be looked down upon and getting some great achievements I've never received in my entire life. It's always that pattern. It runs in the family, the eldest daughters of the family.
Perhaps, I should stop arguing and start accepting my fate....I'm always an island, because no one understands me.
And they say No man is an island.
I am no man.....I don't even think I'm human to start with
So, in end of this, good bye to whoever I thought I hold dear most, only to realise, that they will never can understand me....
I shouldn't have come out......
I don't have to clarify
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If you dare, show your face and ask me what is my problem with you.
Spreading my words behind my back without clearance will only led you and me being in an awkward situation.
I know, because I had the same thing happening in form 5.
I couldn't care less then. Why should I now?
Simply because the circle of people are different than before?
I was a loner then. If environment persists, I can turn into a loner like before, like always.
I can always relapse back to self-reclusion. But I know you can't.
So if you have a problem with me, talk to me, don't go around letting people assume I'm some kind of idiot oblivious about what has been going on.
Or are you just afraid to look at me face to face?
If you are, then go ahead and spread. I couldn't care less and I won't clarify unless somebody asked.
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I'll always be alright. Cause I know I have myself to depend on.
Even if you see me crying it is not a sign of defeat or weakness. It is merely a release of pent-up emotion.
I'll just cry whenever I want to. I won't keep it in anymore.
I don't want to think of depression and suicide when I've been through that walkway of hell....keeping it in always makes me worst.
So, be a human. And I dare you to clarify things with me.
Spreading my words behind my back without clearance will only led you and me being in an awkward situation.
I know, because I had the same thing happening in form 5.
I couldn't care less then. Why should I now?
Simply because the circle of people are different than before?
I was a loner then. If environment persists, I can turn into a loner like before, like always.
I can always relapse back to self-reclusion. But I know you can't.
So if you have a problem with me, talk to me, don't go around letting people assume I'm some kind of idiot oblivious about what has been going on.
Or are you just afraid to look at me face to face?
If you are, then go ahead and spread. I couldn't care less and I won't clarify unless somebody asked.
æž è èȘæž
I'll always be alright. Cause I know I have myself to depend on.
Even if you see me crying it is not a sign of defeat or weakness. It is merely a release of pent-up emotion.
I'll just cry whenever I want to. I won't keep it in anymore.
I don't want to think of depression and suicide when I've been through that walkway of hell....keeping it in always makes me worst.
So, be a human. And I dare you to clarify things with me.
We have made our call
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Congratulations.
I'm happy with the turnout of this year's election, because it proves exactly what the government have been denying so much.
1) That the people do listen carefully and rationally before they make their call on who they want to choose. That we are not brainwashed by a one-sided coverage whatsoever.
2) The internet, is the true channel of power, that how much we have relied on it and how it have brought such a great turnout in Malaysia.
So yes, we have spoken, we have given a chance for you to help us change. We called for it, the results are out, you have already been given the power.
So what's your call?
What could you do for us?
I hope it's nothing last minute, for we, can turn you away like that, very easily.
Remember us, we have the power.
Congratulations again.
I'm happy with the turnout of this year's election, because it proves exactly what the government have been denying so much.
1) That the people do listen carefully and rationally before they make their call on who they want to choose. That we are not brainwashed by a one-sided coverage whatsoever.
2) The internet, is the true channel of power, that how much we have relied on it and how it have brought such a great turnout in Malaysia.
So yes, we have spoken, we have given a chance for you to help us change. We called for it, the results are out, you have already been given the power.
So what's your call?
What could you do for us?
I hope it's nothing last minute, for we, can turn you away like that, very easily.
Remember us, we have the power.
Congratulations again.
What the heck are you competing for?
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This is not what I had in mind. Totally none of this can happen if we had a civilised society with a very right mind.
courtesy of AP. Hillary Clinton won quite a number of states in this Super Tuesday yesterday.
There is not one single banners going across the nation (which is like, 50 times bigger than ours hello? Or even if they have, it's only that one banner big enough. Still trying to find pictures to prove it.) to ensure the candidate had the exposure. Because they receive adequate exposures on television, participating in debates, engaging in their own ideology to ensure they will collect all those votes and, in time, in this November, vote for who is the biggest winner of America. I understand they DO need a few months for their campaign because the United States of America does cover a lot of land.
(Photos courtesy of Kenny Sia, Jeff Ooi and Nigel. I know. I steal them from you guys. Sorry. Sue me if you want for copyright infringement. I needed proof mah)
Want to know the difference?
America's Election Campaign '08 - Super Tuesday.
Question: Do you see alot of banners?
Answer: All I see are placards (Those you can bring back home and recycle)
courtesy of AP. Hillary Clinton won quite a number of states in this Super Tuesday yesterday.There is not one single banners going across the nation (which is like, 50 times bigger than ours hello? Or even if they have, it's only that one banner big enough. Still trying to find pictures to prove it.) to ensure the candidate had the exposure. Because they receive adequate exposures on television, participating in debates, engaging in their own ideology to ensure they will collect all those votes and, in time, in this November, vote for who is the biggest winner of America. I understand they DO need a few months for their campaign because the United States of America does cover a lot of land.
Enough of presidential talk. There are a lot of chances to talk about those. Now, lets go to Malaysia's Election Campaign '08
Question: How many kinds of banners do you see?
(Photos courtesy of Kenny Sia, Jeff Ooi and Nigel. I know. I steal them from you guys. Sorry. Sue me if you want for copyright infringement. I needed proof mah)See? How annoying. And these pictures weren't the worse. I have seen those near my university (which is near Petaling Jaya Selatan). These big ones are not the worse. The WORST, are those tiny buntings that you see everytime you passed by any road, or those big posters found in any roundabout possible. I passed by all those driving for almost 2 weeks. At first it's exciting as the elections were all about the new candidates. Publicity stunts through talks, or what they like to call "ceramahs". It seems exciting at some point. But seriously, if I face that same face, same poster in EVERY SINGLE CORNER AND ROUNDABOUT I TURN TO. I puke first before I can even vote. What a waste of money to turn people off poll stations. Seriously.
(Disclaimer: before I can continue on, let me just get this straight, call me a whiner if you have to, but I am only 20 years old. Had I been born earlier or the Election was held later, I would vote. So please do not leave comments like I'm baseless or all talk no action)
But what happens when things get really really nasty, and starts to attack each other personally?
like this:
Or this:
Or even this:
(I know the last picture was supposed to be funny. But isn't this vandalism at some point on the icon of Kuching? Imagine if Barisan Nasional and DAP or PKR or PAS put one flag each at the Twin Towers. Do you think that's funny?)
(Photos again courtesy to Kenny Sia, Teresa Kok and me. I took some of the pictures. Won't tell you which one.)
Do you want to know what I call this?
A fucking waste of money.
Why are the political parties putting all sorts of banners across the nation filled with only their logos and going around hammering the nation to vote for them? What good will it do? Are we that shallow-minded that graphic appeal matters so much?
Why is it that no one would step up and say "hey, screw the graphics and focus on empowering the nation with RATIONAL policies to convince them that words can also do a difference"?
If you don't believe in the mainstream media, where it was already splashed with TV commercials, Radio ads, banners, print ads, all about Barisan Nasional, you can always check out blogs, good ones too. They might not all be from the Opposition, although the Opposition does use the Internet to their advantage unlike BN.
But what do I see in political blogs and mainstream media nowadays?
Media: BN hammering Opposition
Political blogs: Opposition hammering BN.
Damn it! STOP HAMMERING EACH OTHER AND PLEASE TRY TO MAKE A REAL PLAN OUT OF SOMETHING FOR MALAYSIANS TO SEE CAN OR NOT?
I used to be really impressed with the plans of the Opposition. Because I can see that when they try, they could make a difference. Because they have fielded in those who are really professionals in regards of economy, sociology, IT, etc, these fields that needs alot of boosting and planning to ensure that Malaysia had truly achieved the development they wanted. But unfortunately, these "professionals" are now trying to make an impression to the folks at some towns, but still needed to update their blogs. Really feel impressed by their hard work. But at the same time, I wondered about something.
What are you guys trying to show here?
What are you guys competing for?
Are you competing against each other and let the audience see some shows and let them decide themselves who to vote?
Are you competing to just impress voters?
Look at the other countries, where would they need to use so much banners and cover the whole town with it? Just so that they'll reminded to vote whoever's in their constituency?
Whatever happen to the power of debate? Isn't that what we wanted to hear? That we can listen, with our own ears, what have the candidates, which are YOU GUYS, have in mind?
The Opposition had been trying always to invite a debate from the BN, but it's always rejected, because they don't feel the need of it. Reason was so simple: "Look at our progress, look at yours. sux2bu :("
Really? What kind of progress did you do? Those personal attacks against the parties counted? Those sexist ones? (even if they had taken it down we'll never forget this episode) Progress of Malaysia? Really? Then why do we keep hearing accusations of corruptions and misuse of rakyat's money?
What about those news about injustices and meddlings of religion? People, Sharlini is not found yet. By now she could have died or brought to another country, and you were all busy trying to maintain some kind of peace because you were worried about some hacker that hacks into the political system that is already biased and giving a ground advantage to the major political party?
And don't get me hammering on the indelible ink scam. I feel SICK just looking at that piece of shit news!
The Opposition was no better. Sure, Tony Pua had provided really relevant insight s into the Economy, same for Jeff Ooi for the Technology part (Thank god wei, I didn't know there were so many scams just involving the handphones itself), but now as they are going out for the talks, leaving the blogs behind, who else can do the same kind of research as they can? Who?
I don't know if the Opposition meant to play the BN game, fighting over numbers of banners, numbers of voters, numbers of ceramahs, all numbers! All numbers, all only about quantities. But has anyone touch about quality other than the same kind of promises we had been listening for so many years? Can anyone actually ensure that Malaysia will be in safe hands regardless of who wins? Can ANYONE tell me?
If you can, then answer these question:
What the heck are you competing for? Only the seats? Then what?
Do you need to compete like this if Malaysians do know how to think?
I really want to know. Because I feel sad as a Malaysian, that this is how we play the democratic game. It is not a nice game that involves our wellbeing, future and money. Not nice at all.
Hopefully, someone can answer
Hopefully.
Bye bye.
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I'm sure we'll meet again dear friend.
Thank you for being part of my life during our Foundation days.
Thank you for being able to understand from my perspective of how life it should be.
I know it must have been hard for you to continue on despite the dire situation, but I respect your decision. I'm sure you'll find something better.
I'll never forget how you said you can trust in me because we think alike, even though we don't talk much.
I cannot agree more.
Truthfully, if I had known you are going so soon, I'd be holding a farewell ceremony even if your coursemates won't attend. But I know fully well who would.
Other than me of course.
But alas, it was not meant to be. I'm also quite afraid to organise such things, because we know fully well we'll be teary-eyed even though we don't talk much together. Because between you and me, words just fail to establish what we know of each other right?
Ah well, this is the end of it. I'm dedicating this whole post to you. You know fully well who you are. And even if you are going somewhere. Please don't delete your msn. You know you can always count on seeing me online. Like what the jokes say, I online 24/7. Haha.
Farewell and goodbye. But it's not the last goodbye we hear from each other. Soon, "hello again" will pop up from our MSN conversation window. =)
(Feels a little empty losing another common friend in my uni. I'm trying hard not to cry. Really.)
Thank you for being part of my life during our Foundation days.
Thank you for being able to understand from my perspective of how life it should be.
I know it must have been hard for you to continue on despite the dire situation, but I respect your decision. I'm sure you'll find something better.
I'll never forget how you said you can trust in me because we think alike, even though we don't talk much.
I cannot agree more.
Truthfully, if I had known you are going so soon, I'd be holding a farewell ceremony even if your coursemates won't attend. But I know fully well who would.
Other than me of course.
But alas, it was not meant to be. I'm also quite afraid to organise such things, because we know fully well we'll be teary-eyed even though we don't talk much together. Because between you and me, words just fail to establish what we know of each other right?
Ah well, this is the end of it. I'm dedicating this whole post to you. You know fully well who you are. And even if you are going somewhere. Please don't delete your msn. You know you can always count on seeing me online. Like what the jokes say, I online 24/7. Haha.
Farewell and goodbye. But it's not the last goodbye we hear from each other. Soon, "hello again" will pop up from our MSN conversation window. =)
(Feels a little empty losing another common friend in my uni. I'm trying hard not to cry. Really.)
Warning: May content dissatisfaction
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First of all, I may like to just make a statement.
As a student journalist, I will not take sides and will not look at people with a biased angle. I observe what I see. And I jot it down. That is all. I tell it as it is. It is entirely up to you guys to intepret what I've heard. I would have never change or edit it. Because this is what I see, what I hear, and that is all. This is what a journalist should do. And what I thought was to ensure there is a fair coverage. So that even the mainstream media did not cover the event, at least the amateur noob here will, with all the truth and nothing but the truth (cliched? exactly what I really want to tell to you).
However, as a civillian and a resident, of course I'd want to support one side to ensure that there's something starting to change in my country. I'm sick of seeing things happening again and again and yet nothing is done. However, my choice of covering the opposition was entirely out of my judgement of fair coverage. The reason was already stated above.
But another thing is, hello, stop stereotyping all students can or not? Just because my university I'm currently studying is unfortunately affiliated with the power political party that doesn't mean I was trying to be here to spy on you or trying to get some stupid information out of you. I know the law forbids that (or rather what they say about the law). I know some of you are working in Governmental-Linked-Companies, but don't worry. I don't take pictures of you like mug shots so that everyone can see your face. No one can.
It is very unfortunate to have (somewhat) political influence, but that only stays within the administration office. The students were here because they had no choice, either no money or no academics, so my university became the more better option there is here. And of course some lecturers were apparently hired that way. But let me tell this straight, most of them ARE NOT hired by any political party. I know so many of them did not get their pay or were delayed for three months. THREE months! That's suicide for anyone who doesn't save money, but yet those lecturers stayed on. Why?
BECAUSE THEY ARE HERE TO EDUCATE US TO THINK RATIONALLY AND MAKE THE RIGHT CHOICE! NOT BRAINWASH US TO SUPPORT AND FEEL GRATEFUL FOR THE POLITICAL PARTY!
I hope this answers everything to whom think my university was educating people to be biased. Or maybe if you have come across biased people, it's not because it was taught. It was already in their blood the day they were born. Or maybe they just choose to ignore about active politics and current issues and read about lala-lands and more hong kong, taiwanese stars.
I'm really sorry to point that out, but the majority of the students are really that ignorant. Save for Journalism students which is what I'm studying now. Then again, we are supposed to be informative. Extremely informative. But hey, if you don't even know what is going on, and what are general knowledge, you think you are going to survive being a broadcaster for entertainment news?
I know, because this is what most people aim to be. What the fish la I tell you.
Told you it contents dissatisfaction. So you can't sue me.
Stop all stereotypes and return education back to education, no more political affiliations. So sick of those. URGH!
If there's something I want to change, its these 2:
1) Remove any, and I mean ANY, political influence from all universities, except for those comprising of student leaders. So that they won't be any kind of stereotypes ever, neither in public nor private universities. As much as I felt grateful for the financial help, that is all they should contribute. Anymore and I swear I'll leave even though the Degree in Journalism course in that university is actually creditable.
2) Media freedom. Nuff said?
As a student journalist, I will not take sides and will not look at people with a biased angle. I observe what I see. And I jot it down. That is all. I tell it as it is. It is entirely up to you guys to intepret what I've heard. I would have never change or edit it. Because this is what I see, what I hear, and that is all. This is what a journalist should do. And what I thought was to ensure there is a fair coverage. So that even the mainstream media did not cover the event, at least the amateur noob here will, with all the truth and nothing but the truth (cliched? exactly what I really want to tell to you).
However, as a civillian and a resident, of course I'd want to support one side to ensure that there's something starting to change in my country. I'm sick of seeing things happening again and again and yet nothing is done. However, my choice of covering the opposition was entirely out of my judgement of fair coverage. The reason was already stated above.
But another thing is, hello, stop stereotyping all students can or not? Just because my university I'm currently studying is unfortunately affiliated with the power political party that doesn't mean I was trying to be here to spy on you or trying to get some stupid information out of you. I know the law forbids that (or rather what they say about the law). I know some of you are working in Governmental-Linked-Companies, but don't worry. I don't take pictures of you like mug shots so that everyone can see your face. No one can.
It is very unfortunate to have (somewhat) political influence, but that only stays within the administration office. The students were here because they had no choice, either no money or no academics, so my university became the more better option there is here. And of course some lecturers were apparently hired that way. But let me tell this straight, most of them ARE NOT hired by any political party. I know so many of them did not get their pay or were delayed for three months. THREE months! That's suicide for anyone who doesn't save money, but yet those lecturers stayed on. Why?
BECAUSE THEY ARE HERE TO EDUCATE US TO THINK RATIONALLY AND MAKE THE RIGHT CHOICE! NOT BRAINWASH US TO SUPPORT AND FEEL GRATEFUL FOR THE POLITICAL PARTY!
I hope this answers everything to whom think my university was educating people to be biased. Or maybe if you have come across biased people, it's not because it was taught. It was already in their blood the day they were born. Or maybe they just choose to ignore about active politics and current issues and read about lala-lands and more hong kong, taiwanese stars.
I'm really sorry to point that out, but the majority of the students are really that ignorant. Save for Journalism students which is what I'm studying now. Then again, we are supposed to be informative. Extremely informative. But hey, if you don't even know what is going on, and what are general knowledge, you think you are going to survive being a broadcaster for entertainment news?
I know, because this is what most people aim to be. What the fish la I tell you.
Told you it contents dissatisfaction. So you can't sue me.
Stop all stereotypes and return education back to education, no more political affiliations. So sick of those. URGH!
If there's something I want to change, its these 2:
1) Remove any, and I mean ANY, political influence from all universities, except for those comprising of student leaders. So that they won't be any kind of stereotypes ever, neither in public nor private universities. As much as I felt grateful for the financial help, that is all they should contribute. Anymore and I swear I'll leave even though the Degree in Journalism course in that university is actually creditable.
2) Media freedom. Nuff said?
(Updated March 9th 2008: Earlier I was doing my assignment for my university, UTAR, and I was covering the event from DAP's point of view. And as all Malaysians know, MCA the powerhouse funded UTAR financially, hence being extremely affiliated with them, but had NO POWER controlling what we learn. I was covering Hannah Yeoh's Nomination Day. There were only 30 something supporters from DAP. And some of them were skeptical towards me based on where I'm from. Now that Hannah has won, I'm proud to say, I do not feel too sad for MCA, now lets hope she really will do something to change my area.)
Something else to share
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If we can express as freely as they can, then you'll know we have changed. I think the process is under way. Wait for more posts regarding of this to come.
By the way, the song was good. Kudos to will.i.am.
This is getting nowhere
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cDi
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I wanted to put the title "This is getting out of hand". But then again, that will make me sound superior than the others. And I'm certainly not God. So I guess this title will do.
Before we go formal, would like to wish everyone to be happy even though "Happy Cliched Overrated Lovey Dovey Couples Love-In-Your-Face Day" is already over. Just always becareful with your decisions during that day.
Unfortunately some other people's decisions to be intimate go awry. Very awry. Awry to the fact that they fall for the same person, who likes to take pictures of intimacy, that got careless and now known as the most notorious sex scandal in the whole of Asia.
Yes, you know what I'm talking about. The cheeky looking playboy with a CBC (Canadian Born Chinese) bad guy attitude that goes around spreading the love to all the rising starlets. And in the heat of the atmosphere he decides to take pictures of them.
Sounds fine right? Who doesn't do that to their girlfriends now? It's so common I wouldn't be surprised that it'll be the future documentary of the generation. Problem didn't stop there. It's just that whenever he stop being with one starlet, he still stupidly keeps those photos. Or videos for that matter, since those photos looked like video stills.
So in the end, 13 starlets, 7 revealed, 6 remain hidden are now one the most talked topic for almost a month now. And in my opinion, we are not going to see the end of it. Everybody's looking for the pictures despite the playboy's pleas to delete them. That triggered more people to look for them, the whole phenomenon didn't die down. It just gets worst every minute.
And out of those 7 victims. 2 of them had their marriage wrecked, one of them remains standing, and the others have nothing whatsoever. They were not famous in the first place. But one thing for sure, this playboy, is going to be in big trouble.
Personally I felt those starlets were rather the worse hit victims in this whole scandal. I mean, marriages, wrecked over a bunch of intimate photos which were taken years ago. By right, if we follow modern mentality (Yes, including conservative Asians mind you) it shouldn't and will not be an issue. It's in the past. Okay? There is some kind of risk that your past boyfriend happen to be a sick bastard who likes to take pictures. What they didn't think of was that he'll keep it for weird kinds of entertainment purposes I presume.
But on the other hand, if, and I said, IF, playboy wasn't someone famous in the Asian region, would anyone care if they had one thousand photos of him with different ladies? Probably not.
The only thing I'll wish to all of those involved:
Playboy: Good luck with protecting your life
2 married starlets: Good luck with making your marriage work
Single starlets: Good luck with your career. You might go into porn
Hidden starlets: Good luck with the poster's mood. Or, you could admit yourself first before your photos come out.
Now you know how serious we look at sex. Immorality apparently, is still within the heads of the authority. Not that promiscuity is looked up upon. But how do you frown upon a girl, who is clearly over 21, clearly enjoying herself when the pictures were shown when she was succumb to those acts, made her admit that she was "stupid", "clueless", "naive" over this? Do you (Pointing to her management company) think we were THAT stupid? That she never had a sex life during her whole career? That she was supposed to be 20 year-old girl-next-door-remaining-virgin?
And even then, she have never claimed she was a virgin or had never had sex. It was you guys who made that image up. So is she supposed to claim responsibility for what she had done? Is she supposed to step up and claim that it was her fault for being stupid when you are the one who designated that image for her? Or maybe, like speculations say, you are just framing all these stars because they were too arrogant and stupid that you think you should killed their career and personal lives as well?
Well done, "Kira", you done everything well. And just like Light Yagami in Death Note, you have strategically planned everything well into your head. Too bad, humans can't be prosecutors for you. Too bad, I can't wish for a shinigami (Death God), to suddenly appear and wrote YOUR name instead.
It was because of you "Kira", that this matter, which was supposed to be a personal problem, turned publicised and nasty.
Conclusion: This is getting nowhere. There is no solution.
PS: to those who still love, forgive, forget, compromise. It may not be entirely her fault either.
Before we go formal, would like to wish everyone to be happy even though "Happy Cliched Overrated Lovey Dovey Couples Love-In-Your-Face Day" is already over. Just always becareful with your decisions during that day.
Unfortunately some other people's decisions to be intimate go awry. Very awry. Awry to the fact that they fall for the same person, who likes to take pictures of intimacy, that got careless and now known as the most notorious sex scandal in the whole of Asia.
Yes, you know what I'm talking about. The cheeky looking playboy with a CBC (Canadian Born Chinese) bad guy attitude that goes around spreading the love to all the rising starlets. And in the heat of the atmosphere he decides to take pictures of them.
Sounds fine right? Who doesn't do that to their girlfriends now? It's so common I wouldn't be surprised that it'll be the future documentary of the generation. Problem didn't stop there. It's just that whenever he stop being with one starlet, he still stupidly keeps those photos. Or videos for that matter, since those photos looked like video stills.
So in the end, 13 starlets, 7 revealed, 6 remain hidden are now one the most talked topic for almost a month now. And in my opinion, we are not going to see the end of it. Everybody's looking for the pictures despite the playboy's pleas to delete them. That triggered more people to look for them, the whole phenomenon didn't die down. It just gets worst every minute.
And out of those 7 victims. 2 of them had their marriage wrecked, one of them remains standing, and the others have nothing whatsoever. They were not famous in the first place. But one thing for sure, this playboy, is going to be in big trouble.
Personally I felt those starlets were rather the worse hit victims in this whole scandal. I mean, marriages, wrecked over a bunch of intimate photos which were taken years ago. By right, if we follow modern mentality (Yes, including conservative Asians mind you) it shouldn't and will not be an issue. It's in the past. Okay? There is some kind of risk that your past boyfriend happen to be a sick bastard who likes to take pictures. What they didn't think of was that he'll keep it for weird kinds of entertainment purposes I presume.
But on the other hand, if, and I said, IF, playboy wasn't someone famous in the Asian region, would anyone care if they had one thousand photos of him with different ladies? Probably not.
The only thing I'll wish to all of those involved:
Playboy: Good luck with protecting your life
2 married starlets: Good luck with making your marriage work
Single starlets: Good luck with your career. You might go into porn
Hidden starlets: Good luck with the poster's mood. Or, you could admit yourself first before your photos come out.
Now you know how serious we look at sex. Immorality apparently, is still within the heads of the authority. Not that promiscuity is looked up upon. But how do you frown upon a girl, who is clearly over 21, clearly enjoying herself when the pictures were shown when she was succumb to those acts, made her admit that she was "stupid", "clueless", "naive" over this? Do you (Pointing to her management company) think we were THAT stupid? That she never had a sex life during her whole career? That she was supposed to be 20 year-old girl-next-door-remaining-virgin?
And even then, she have never claimed she was a virgin or had never had sex. It was you guys who made that image up. So is she supposed to claim responsibility for what she had done? Is she supposed to step up and claim that it was her fault for being stupid when you are the one who designated that image for her? Or maybe, like speculations say, you are just framing all these stars because they were too arrogant and stupid that you think you should killed their career and personal lives as well?
Well done, "Kira", you done everything well. And just like Light Yagami in Death Note, you have strategically planned everything well into your head. Too bad, humans can't be prosecutors for you. Too bad, I can't wish for a shinigami (Death God), to suddenly appear and wrote YOUR name instead.
It was because of you "Kira", that this matter, which was supposed to be a personal problem, turned publicised and nasty.
Conclusion: This is getting nowhere. There is no solution.
PS: to those who still love, forgive, forget, compromise. It may not be entirely her fault either.
One.
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The first time I blogged, I questioned my angel. I wondered when will he appear.
8 months later, I found him.
Process wasn't great. Angels were so hard to pleased. Then again, they came from a different realm. They won't fly away, they won't hit me. They sulk and cry.
And that hurts the most to women. If angels start crying, then the women, us, the passive lovers, will be even more grief-stricken.
So we stop treating them like angels. They came here, they are supposed to adapt to our culture. Hence, we dare to call them humans, with equal status as we do.
But humans have emotions.Hence, It's another crucial battle that didn't involve swords and knife that pierced through the body physically, but sacarsm, insults, that pierced through the hearts, brains, emotions and wit. Humans just turn stupid over fights.
Ephyon turned from an angel into a human. And he likes to be a human now. Notice how all of us are angels in our first few encounters together? Dating? I was so reluctant of scolding him, I just let him do what he wants. He too, let me do what I want.
Then emotions run high, it was so hard to not offend him without raising my voice when I had something that needs to be done. I think he found the same kind of problem with me too.
Nowadays we just voice it out without giving second thoughts, that hurts too, somewhat.
But why do I voice out the negativity first? Love was supposed to be splendid is it? Yes but unfortunately the times in university were sort of crucial and if you ask me to count the number of times we actually had fun, I can only give 2. Shopping malls, movies were just a relief of stress. I'm sure Ephyon agreed. I mean, I asked him personally.
But nevertheless, one year has passed and that guy is still stuck with me. He likes me like that. I like him like that too. Women are hard to please, and I am like that, sort of. Yet everytime I gave him a choice, he just chooses to stay with me.
Now that one year mark has gone, I stopped giving him the choice. It's unnecessary now for our relationship has long gone it's honeymoon periods. But yet, I still find new things to explore about him. After all, he is the reason I won such an expensive bottle of perfume from hundreds of comments.
Ephyon, I know my writing's kind of random now, because I prefer spur-of-the-moment kind of blog post for important people like you. But this is how I like to write I guess. Love, I thought I'm never worthy to have it. But you proved me wrong, again and again. You seem to have problems, but those problems were so petty you could've solve it yourself anyway. But yet you share your problems with me, wondering how to solve it.
Now I know. You just love my company don't you?
And I love yours too.
Ephyon had said his three words. And now I'll say mine.
I...
Want...
SEX!!!
XD
Random right?
okay, I love you too.
8 months later, I found him.
Process wasn't great. Angels were so hard to pleased. Then again, they came from a different realm. They won't fly away, they won't hit me. They sulk and cry.
And that hurts the most to women. If angels start crying, then the women, us, the passive lovers, will be even more grief-stricken.
So we stop treating them like angels. They came here, they are supposed to adapt to our culture. Hence, we dare to call them humans, with equal status as we do.
But humans have emotions.Hence, It's another crucial battle that didn't involve swords and knife that pierced through the body physically, but sacarsm, insults, that pierced through the hearts, brains, emotions and wit. Humans just turn stupid over fights.
Ephyon turned from an angel into a human. And he likes to be a human now. Notice how all of us are angels in our first few encounters together? Dating? I was so reluctant of scolding him, I just let him do what he wants. He too, let me do what I want.
Then emotions run high, it was so hard to not offend him without raising my voice when I had something that needs to be done. I think he found the same kind of problem with me too.
Nowadays we just voice it out without giving second thoughts, that hurts too, somewhat.
But why do I voice out the negativity first? Love was supposed to be splendid is it? Yes but unfortunately the times in university were sort of crucial and if you ask me to count the number of times we actually had fun, I can only give 2. Shopping malls, movies were just a relief of stress. I'm sure Ephyon agreed. I mean, I asked him personally.
But nevertheless, one year has passed and that guy is still stuck with me. He likes me like that. I like him like that too. Women are hard to please, and I am like that, sort of. Yet everytime I gave him a choice, he just chooses to stay with me.
Now that one year mark has gone, I stopped giving him the choice. It's unnecessary now for our relationship has long gone it's honeymoon periods. But yet, I still find new things to explore about him. After all, he is the reason I won such an expensive bottle of perfume from hundreds of comments.
Ephyon, I know my writing's kind of random now, because I prefer spur-of-the-moment kind of blog post for important people like you. But this is how I like to write I guess. Love, I thought I'm never worthy to have it. But you proved me wrong, again and again. You seem to have problems, but those problems were so petty you could've solve it yourself anyway. But yet you share your problems with me, wondering how to solve it.
Now I know. You just love my company don't you?
And I love yours too.
Ephyon had said his three words. And now I'll say mine.
I...
Want...
SEX!!!
XD
Random right?
okay, I love you too.
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