Life, destroyed

As they usher into a festive mood, I felt like mine was plunged down. I had just witnessed an accident.

Motorcycle collided with the lorry, and the motorcyclist laid there on the open road, with more cars rushing from the highway. As if things are not bad enough, the lorry ran away, from the accident scene. That whole thing happened just like that, just as I turn my head to that direction. I was stunned, can't really talk much. Then a few more went to help or to gossip. Then the police came. I was going back that way too. So when the bus I was on passed by the scene, I see a lifeless body over the massive crowd that was surrounding it, and a blood pool. I doubt that he survives, but I sure hope he hangs on to life.

2 weeks back, I've heard of a similar incident, but from a different person. From Ephyon's grandfather. Ephyon is also orphaned, caused by a road accident which killed both his parents and the lorry driver. It happened when he was only six months old, barely able to walk, only knowing how to crawl. I cried as I hear it. I looked at Ephyon, a 21 year-old healthy man who loves me so much. I felt as if he don't deserve such fate, but yet he had bear it throughout his lifetime, and possibly all the time. I really won't let him go easily after that. No way, unless he chooses to leave me.

Today's newspaper is about a couple who had an online memorial for their children who were all stillborn. David and Angeline Sim mourned for their 3 children who never even make it pass their infant stage. Angeline felt that it was her fault for not being able to give life to the life inside her womb. It hurts them when they couldn't cradle or cuddle their baby in their arms. It hurts them to see other new parents with healthy babies, when they mourned the losses of their 3 babies. It hurts them to know that there is really a slim chance for them to have children, the purpose of a married life and starting a family. It hurts them, it hurts me too. Life just seemed so fragile. I hope they will have a baby soon, a healthy one with smiles, and blessings from the previous 3 babies.

Who determined the term "life" when it sounds so strong, yet seem so weak? We needed medicines to continue and protect life. We needed to exercise to maintain health, which has relations to life. We needed to stay happy, to look forward into life, to live our life! Life, life, life, life, life, life, life, LIFE! Everything we do, it has to be life. If life is what we are, then once its destroyed, we won't exist anymore. We think that its cruel. But once upon a time, that was how dinosaurs ceased to exist, leaving some of them to evolve, to lose out something in them to get used to the change of weather and temperature, to continue with life. Those who can't evolved, you'll face heaven's gates and they will look at you, saying "I'm sorry, because you choose to remain like this, you lost your chance to live". I view that as cruel, what about you?

I thought of the amount of people who died everyday in Mother Earth. Mother Earth, sigh, she stopped feeling compassionate to the human race. No, she thinks that they had made too much damage. And so, she conducts phenomenons, causing terror, more sadness. Do not say that war and massacre are not caused by her. She made it happen. She made human minds turn mad. She turn the greatest leaders to the worst kind of animals. She can turn the sane to insane. She can turn everything. Do not irk her, she made lives destroyed before. Have we not learn about our ancestors? Those who raised a dynasty, and those who made the dynasty fall? Those who raised the kingdom, and those who made the kingdom crashed down?

I don't blame the existence of free thinkers. They think freely. No restriction of religion, which was, according to them, a false image of a reality. I could say that it was half true. That is because when those people existed, like Jesus Christ or Lord Buddha or Nabi Muhammad, when they exist, their teachings work well with the people their time. But as time passed, centuries goes by, the teachings did not evolve, until we couldn't connect with the teachings anymore. So what we have is belief on ourselves. That's all we have. We evolve, not them.

I want my life not to be destroyed. And his too.

"Im gonna make you feel like you are heaven on earth....."

Earth is no more heaven. Life is no more strong. Yet, we still hold onto it. Why?

Because we want to exist.

Pray for the accident victim. May he hang on to his life.