Break That Rule

As I run through my Sociology notes in preparation for the finals, my heart stopped at the topic I was supposed to "specialize" in: Deviance. A definition where it is a violation of norms. When an aborigine comes to a modern world full of skyscrapers, wearing almost nothing but a towel, and looking around in disbelief, he is a deviant. But to put a well-suited man equipped with a briefcase in a desert or a community where everyone has colours on their face, wearing nothing, and practically, being "uncivilised", this "civilised" being is a deviant.

If that is the case, anyone who did something wrong and abnormal is a deviant. But some actions of deviance are slowly growing into a norm. A very good example will be the homosexuality that had been around here. Even though our country had proudly announce they will not tolerate any sign of abnormality of sexuality here, it has never stop the people who feel differently than the others. Lesbians and gays, they are people too. They have feelings for their respective partners. I myself do not think that someone who is a homosexual is weird. I think homosexuals are suffering, wanting to be in a status that is the same as others, but also retaining their own identity as a gay or a lesbian. I can only support them because like I said, they are part of being with us here in Earth.

I guess everyone breaks rules. No one is left pure and not breaking any of them. Some might be small, like breaking the rules of schools, homes, family etc. But some broke the rule of humanity, where they break the rules of old traditions, like those Africans who are now divided into two communities: One still preserve and practise the traditional culture, and one who had received and accepted the teachings of human rights and stopping these actions. No one here is good nor evil. They are just going on with their life. It is just other people's perception whether do they agree with the actions.

For instance, if the practise of sacrifice is accepted by all communities, including the child that is going to be sacrificed, they can continue the practise that. However, if those folks think that this is injustice, then prove to them and bring them to face the law. This is the exact same thing that applies to those who were in the homosexual community. IF the whole community accepts homosexuals, just be happy doing so. And breaking the rules? Heck, they MAKE rules for the homosexuals to get married.

And, now, I have nothing more to say. Sorry if this is a short post, but I guess that people appreciate me for posting short blog posts.

Thanks and good day.

The Reason

Yes, I'm now not mentally balanced. Just read the damn thing.

Someone who likes to speak her mind out. Not many were fond of the frankness. A critic, a loud critic that many hates, who doesn't know how to lower the voice down. Do I need to give a reason to say what was in my mind?

A loner. A pathetic loner. Always trying to stay away from anything that disturbs the mind. Doesn't like to be angry, because once the anger comes, it will take days, weeks or even months before the anger subsides. It's in the blood, there's nothing that can be help. Do I need a reason to explain to the crowd?

Regret. Regretting everything. Dedicated to studies, not wanting to be involved in any relationship. But can't help but put my head into other people's problems. Their problems are getting very tough to handle. Prefer not to bug into anything anymore. Today proved everything right. Not bugging into anyone's problems are the best. Do I need a reason to stay away from all the people that has been telling me problems?

Disappointment. A friend who takes things for granted. He says he appreciates as a good friend is actually a liar. Wish that he would be kicked out from campus. But can't, because of a scandal that has been going around and around. The scandal has been exposed in another group. Wish that it was exposed in this group so that a friend would be kicked out. There is no need to feel pity for him. The supposedly concentration on getting a degree has changed to the concentration on his partner. Since he's already secured with a career, why bother coming to study? I don't see a reason to protect him anymore.

Sick and tired of keeping the family away from problems. But there is no need to bother them too. Everything can be solved right here and now. Because the main priority is still on assignments and studies. Even if there's problems, it's not mine. So basically I don't have problems. All I did was bugging everyone so they tell problems to me, and I'll be the lifesaver and save their lives instead! Wow, I am pathetic! Everyone who knows me will know that I am just a nosy idiot who can't keep her noses on her books! Maybe I should start having a reason not to, since no one actually bother to care for a nosy idiot.

I am different, so what? To whoever that ever detest me just because I don't act like any other girl, just bully another person. I've fallen to become a victim once, I'm not going for the same trick twice. I look boring, so what? Are you going to kill me to make me change? Opinions are nice, but one too many is irritating. I do have my limits, and my anger limit has reached its level.

The reason is always a polite way of avoiding anymore arguments over some issue. Some reasons are nice, others, are stupid.

A New Dawn

It is now, truly, stepping into the year of 2007. For the past one year many incidents had happenned that is history-book worthy, and many of us created history ourselves.

I, for one, had finally stepped into the working world. I worked as a part-timer in a shopping complex near my house, and it is not exactly what I desire. I felt precious time slipping away everyday when I was working there, half-wishing that I was doing something much more meaningful. Nevertheless, I had enjoyed, because I reap what I sow, and the results were more satisfying.

I've also learned how to drive, which also, it is not a easy as it seems. Driving a real car is hard; it almost as if I have to start learning how to walk properly again. But then again, after that I can managed a car, but still, when I have to face a test driver, My legs just gave way. I felt like an idiot, but a proud idiot, because I still pass the test, and currently practising how to drive once in a while in my mom's huge car.

I've finally left the uniform world, and step into a "corporate" higher level institution. Why do I say corporate? It is almost as if I was in a company. There is no such thing as unity in my group. All I see is competition. But I still managed to make a few friends, and sincerely I think I'm one of the luckiest people. All my friends, have been the people that I wanted to hang out with ever since I was small; those who do not detest me because of the way I look, and those who I can actually share my joys with. I know that there are many others in this campus, which I can't actually make any connection because what they think is different than mine, but still I love the challenge being in here. Everyone has different perspectives and different ideas, and I love to hear all of them.

I've became an important role in the family, being the first kid to enter a higher institution. My mom nags me more than before, contrary to belief that once one turns 18, one will get more freedom; I do get the freedom, but I get more lecture too. Maybe my mom is too worried and she wanted to change me so I can accept the fact that I'm going to adulthood. How much I want to tell her that I'm fine and do not worry so much. It seems she wanted to see my actions more than my words. Well, action speaks louder than words. I'll just have to prove to her this year that I'm okay with myself.

I also know how to deal with problems myself. I rarely seek the advice of anyone, be it friends or family. People might wonder why wouldn't I share with people of my woes or problems, but that is because I do not want anyone to get worried, plus, if I'm able to handle it myself, there is no need to give others the trouble. So to anyone that has been worried that I didn't share anything with them, I'm sorry, and thank you that you cared. If I felt helpless, I know that you guys are there for me. Thank you again.

As for what do I hope for this new year, I can't expect much. I just want to get better marks in semester 2, much better than semester 1. I also want to have a smooth ride in semester 3, then I can finally concentrate on having a Bachelor's Degree. I hope to be a journalist, but not a liberal journalist. I do not like being someone who is a party-goer, I've seen too much. I know sometimes I like the atmosphere, but I don't like being inside there for so many times. So I hope I can find something that suits me, travelling with just casual clothing, exploring new things. I love that kind of life, I love being free.

Let us all wish for a better beginning in the new year. Whatever that has happenned in 2006, it has already happenned. Cherish, or let go. As for the 2007, let us all create new histories for ourselves. Everyone, Happy New Year.

Thanks and good day.