I miss...

Making new friends.

My thesis is seriously halting my time with people. I could barely breathe. I even see less of Marc. And then there are others who have a whole litter of friends that would seem to have "layan" them but what they do? Go on shitty flings.

I don't get the idea of hurting one's self to satisfy the hunger of being with another, even if that period is short. I don't get it. If that is the case, then what is the whole point of maintaining a human relationship if we just use each other.

Honestly, I don't get it. That's why I find an easier way: I don't call myself a great friend to others. It's always them calling it to me.

But sometimes, I do miss that feeling, of calling somebody a friend.

mental pain

I'm experiencing a slight mental breakdown where I can feel my brain cell went down inch by inch every single second.

I needed this space to channel the energy away. Thank god I'm allowed to stare at a smaller device. Couldn't bring myself to look at the big laptop screen.

There's this opportunity waiting there but I don't know if I should grab it. Reactions are mixed this time. It's hard to say if and when can I grab it. I'm going to seek consultation about this matter. Pray tell, that this belongs to me.

I can't promise the things that I aspire to be. But one thing for sure, I want to grab it.

Excuse my verbal diarrhea. I just completed a painfully long assignment and my head is throbbing. Thankfully, I have a Blackberry to blog on. And no, don't worry, it's not an advertorial. My Blackberry serves me really well when it comes to assignments. I'm grateful I'm able to buy this to cope with my final semester and the thesis as well.

I'm going to bid you adieu now, before I get sick looking at small screens as well.

attempting to Blog from BB Onyx

Major FML no.1: couldn't access my favourite blue colour font. Will
attempt one with another browser. Currently using Bolt Browser. I actually went to the web to copy and paste the html coding so that the color comes out. Why am I so anal! FML!

Major FML no.2: could upload pictures. But could not adjust where the
picture should go unlike the computer. And could only view pictures in '
preview' mode. This picture was captured while in Mid Valley with Marc.
Him and his enthusiasm for Lamboghinis. Just got lucky we saw a
convertible.

That's all. Stay tuned as I try more attempts at blogging from a
Blackberry for all Blogspot blackberry users out there.

Drug

My drug, my ecstacy, after being deprived of it for so long, I've finally gotten it back.

It's so liberating, it relieves me of every stress coming from the strands of my temple, probably the only reason why my tempers flared up because I was lacking of it.

My one and only collection in the world. I was so happy, and angry at the same time when my brother tampered my old stuff with his junk. I mean, what does he know? My soul is free using them, it's NOT to be tampered with his!

Oh, in case you're wondering. I'm talking about my music collection. I just finished transferring each and every song I cherish into the new laptop. And listening to these songs brings new refreshing thoughts to me.

I did wonder whether my impending stress came from the lack of listening to songs I've collected over the past three years, each signifying a different phase of me, each telling different stories.

When my mom told me I was musically inclined as a baby, I'd never knew it's like this. With my meagre musical talents, I do recognise the quality of a good song, a meagre song, a "meh" song, and songs that were NOT meant to be released but still is.

But of course not every song I have is of the work of a genius. Some are just pure fun, but fun I can listen to every now and then. Not everyone agrees to my taste of The Ting Tings, but they were promoting Brit funk pop and I do not hesitate listening. It was mindless fun, and catchy.

Anyways, I'm done here. Changed my comments settings, so to people who want to comment you gotta register yourself. It's to ward off the spam at the moment, until I see some improvement to Blogger's comment box.

Back to working on my thesis. Ciao