They are torn between truth and false

Journalists. They have the right to portray the truth. They are the ones spreading the news. They have an important role in mass communication. But they are still controlled by the management. The editors and chief editors.

What happen in China Press is probably the worst journalist attacks in Malaysia. They say that the woman in that Nude Squat Case is a girl from China. They have damaged the diplomatic relationship between China and Malaysia. In the end, the editor and chief editor step down from their position because this is false. That's the reality to it. News can really hurt someone. And some of the times, the news is really annoying. Often a few times I felt that The Star is really wanting more reputation than seeking the truth. Putting a Lebanese "millionaire" on the front page for so many days. Who cares of that idiot anyway? I don't know about the rest of the Malaysians, but I do not want to know what happen to him. Just let him live his life okay? Speaking of that, it reminds me of a taiwan news where an abandonned girl was found and her mother is nonetheless the worst looking Hsu Chun Mei (purely beautiful). They portrayed her for a fare few days, and now she's an artiste? I felt sick. This is disgrace!

I heard the radio today. There's this woman, she said that journalists are always caught in a dilemma. They can always choose to tell the truth. But still, it's not up for them to decide that their news can be shown. I think the editor's room has the most fights of all. Journalists want to show the world the truth, but the editor cares about how much profits that the news company earned. I wonder is my choice a correct one. Maybe it's a correct one. But I definitely cannot stay in Malaysia. I will strong object Malaysia's speaking rights. Whenever I want to spread the truth or false, it will still be against the law. I really have no more comments on how the Malaysian Government made their laws. That is why you will not see me in politics. I'll sure condemn the Government.

This may be me avoiding myself. I always like to know the truth more than lies. Even though the truth hurts so much. I know, my heart may not be able to accept the truths everywhere. Because every truth I accept, it'll be like a cut in my heart, bleeding. That is why I prefer to become a Journalist. I write the stories of others, not mine. The more the reality sinks in, the more I struggle. I hate changes that happen in my life. Like when I was 13 years old, I hate myself because I couldn't adapt to the secondary school lifestyle. Those haunting images of primary school kept coming back. And I'm now in university. Thanks to everyone, I don't have any haunting images in secondary school, and I'm very happy in university.

Maybe, by spreading the truth to others, the others will accept reality even better. Maybe, by knowing more truths, I can accept reality easily. And, maybe, those scars in my heart will heal itself. Let journalists have air to breathe. Let them not be torn. Let me be a successful journalist and change what I don't like about mass communication in the near future. Thanks and good day.

I will keep my promise.

How many people(especially girls) had got hurt for that sentence? I don't know. How many children had cried over disappointment because parents didn't fulfil that sentence? I don't know. How many people had attacked the government because of that sentence given out by the president? I don't know.

Promise. What kind of word is this? Who had invented it? Does he or she know that this word has give a lot of pain to the people here? Does he or she know, that once upon a time, I got hurt of that word? My friends who have fall in love too cry because of a promise. I sometimes wonder what more powers it had in this word : promise.

Come to think of it. No one should give a promise openly. Sure, a promise can secure someone's hope, but what if those hopes are not true? People will just crumble over that. Promise, a mask of a smiling face, when this world have been crying with all the stupidity that mankind had did to it! Promise, a man's strategy to make his girl sleep with him! Promise, another strategy of parents to quiet down their children! Why the hell do promise exist?

I pray my future partner will not keep any promise. Even if he did, I pray that I don't care of it. I got so hopeless on promises, I don't give a damn anymore. It's better this way, not keeping any promises, and in return I have surprises. I'm just like that. I don't care. Which is why I'm not the type of girl that men are searching. I'm strong, maybe, too strong. But I really don't care, just as much as I don't care about promises.

Promises, I pray that they don't exist. Thanks and good day.

Stand Up Girls!

Today, I've come across a newspaper article, where they featured about Saudi Arabian journalistsdoing their everyday interviews. Now before you leave the post, these people are women journalists. In Muslims countries like the Saudi Arabia, there is a different status between men and women. Women couldn't expose their face for the fear that they will seduce men. And they couldn't really walk out of their office without being inspected by the authority. They have to think and act like snakes, thinking of ways to avoid such happenings. And it got me thinking, things have never change.

Women fighting for their rights are considered a sin. They cannot speak out on how much discrimination that they have suffered. That is because in the world of 2006, this is still a world dominated by men. Even if there are women presidents, like Gloria Arroyo, people still doubt whether do they really have the capability to lead the country to become a developed country. Why the doubt? Hasn't the equality between men and women established some time ago? Hasn't women proved that they can win men over by their brains, instead of strength? I admit, women do lack in strength, but what about mental strength? Are men capable of handling their problems while juggling with daily career life?

There are many women in this world that I admire, but I will be talking about a women columnist, Chong Seau Ching. She first inspired me to travel the world, but with a purpose. She told stories of how she met different women in different places, and how they were educated by officers who try to make womens' life better. She got herself married, and she had a daughter. But luck was not beside her as she later divorced her husband. And she spent her later years as a single mother and a homemaker. She still continues to write in her column. But she uses this opportunity to promote the devastating situation of single mothers in Malaysia. I find her columns always a good read. Because she has inspired me to support women's rights. I learn to fight and not let men look down at women. But I too will not overabuse my rights. Because there must have respect between the two genders.

I pray that the women journalists in Saudi Arabia will escape from the discrimination cycle very very soon. Not only Saudi Arabia, even here in Malaysia, those women who were taught that they are weak and the men are strong, it's time to change. We are not in the world where men are the only ones that rule. Women rule too. But please don't be too stupid to play around. You might end up in a very dangerous situation. Be who you want to be, and support the women everywhere. I'm sure that there are some black sheeps around who thinks that being a women you must satisfy the men. But I don't think so, I'll survive without men if I never fall in love, because I'm a GIRL! We are fighters for women's right. So girls, Stand Up!!! Thanks and good day.

Malaysians...

Independence Day is coming. It is always celebrated with colours, fireworks, and most importantly, the final countdown. It brought tears to the old, and the happiness to the young, because of the prospect of a public holiday. But wait, what about the middle class? Teenagers and young adults?

We would be happy because we can finally relax from those hectic schedule. Exams, assignments, projects, meetings, the activities are endless. But at the same time we might groan. Why does the government think that we don't love the country? I love Malaysia a lot. But still, compare to other countries, Malaysia has a lot of aspects that needs improving.

Since young we have been taught to say "please, excuse me, thank you, sorry". And look at what happen now. It's a disgrace to see adults older than us pushing like mad cows just to get out the bus. And while all of us were taught to give our seats to elderly people, some people would rather SHARE a seat then giving the whole seat to them. I cannot imagine how can the elderly sit between two people. It saddens me, especially since we are so much younger and we can't speak out. So all these times, those so-called moral education is fake?

I was happy that my brother can mix very well with other races. But sometimes, he played too much, so my mother restricts him from playing too much. Still, whenever I see my brother playing football with his neighbourhood friends, I smiled. There's still hope for the young ones after all. But I hope my brother knows that there's a deeper meaning to their bond, more than just gathering to play football and playing PlayStation 2. But my brother is still young. Let him grow to learn the true beauties of Malaysia.

I myself learn that there is no such thing as discrimination against other races. We can't just left people out of activities just because they do not know our mother tongue or language. Why not use that opportunity to improve our English or Malay or other languages? I privately do not agree to create a barrier between races. I always try to talk to my group mates from other race as much as possible. Sure, I do feel comfortable speaking in Mandarin, but that doesn't mean that I'll abandon English. After all, English is, and still remains, my favourite language. It's my language from birth.

I love being a Malaysian. Even though many expressed their disappointments on the progression of Malaysians. But all I can say is, no matter where I am, I will always support Malaysia. And yes, if there is a need, I will too state how disappointed I am towards Malaysian government. Hoping they might know of this Chinese proverb " Water can bring a boat to safety, but it also could sink that boat." Thanks and good day. And hope everyone have a Great Independence Day. Love Malaysia, even though I'm not in a patriotic mood.

Amazing blogs, amazing titles, different point of views, different perspectives.....

I've come across a blog that is featuring what Malaysia's tertiary education looked like now. And I was surprised that my university was mentioned. I've read through the whole article, and even some of the reader's comments. They are lamenting what private and public universities that had set their goals for quantity and not quality. From past the few months that I had been in the university, apart from problematic lecturers, my whole life so far had been good.

I've learned that taking up responsibilities are not exactly easy as it seems. When people recommend you to do something, you just take it. Because you want to be the trustworthy one. This will enhance your pavement to a successful career. But in that process you do noticed that it is really hard being in an important role. But what can you do? Abandon it by telling them you can't face the pressure? We can't, because lecturers and everyone around are treating us like adults. But sadly, some still behave like a child and expects spoonfeeding. With such behaviour, do you think the education system has improved? Hardly, and I felt like I'm back at secondary school where the teacher nags and the students daydream.

I've learned that in the university, you truly have to depend on yourself. Neither on books nor the internet, but your determination to succeed. If you don't have the willingness to continue on, what's the use of continuing your studies? Why fight for something unimportant when you should compete and achieve the best that you can? I know people have many controversial issues on how the government should operate the country. But who are you to complain when they have a much better education background? I would say, concentrate on the studies, be who you want to be, and set your mind straight. I do have the dream of changing the mindset of Malaysians to look at Journalism in a different point of view. Many would follow, but I object. I'm not trying to change the tradinational, just merely modernising it. The same goes to my personal life and how I look on the aspects of Love and Life. We don't have to drown, because on the olden days Man had the ability to float. So why not, we see love at the same way?

I've learned that friends from different family backgrounds grows within me. I know, that sometimes people from different races actually could bring me a different point on view on understanding their cultures. But sadly, it is kind of a controversy. Some friends wants you to stay by their side forever. So when they see you befriending a new girl, they tend to get angry. Or they might be angry because you befriended someone from a different race. But we are all adults now aren't we? There will be a time where we have to separate from each other, and that too, doesn't mean it is the end of your friendship with others. Since technology is so advanced, make use of that technology. Keep in touch often, and you will never be alone.

I've learned that language is very important especially staying in this multi-racial country. I don't exactly felt proud, but I do have the ability to maintain both my english and my chinese. Coming from an English speaking background, and being enrolled into a Chinese primary school, I'm sure I felt left out in the first few years because of my funny pronunciation in mandarin and my weak essay writing in chinese. But somehow, I've managed to find my chinese roots when I went to secondary school. And I must say, I didn't regret having an English speaking background and a Chinese primary education. At the very least, I see problems in two ways. One being the Western way, and the other being the Eastern way. This helps me find a solution by repeatingly reviewing both thoughts of mine.

So much I want to learn. So much I want to see. I've attempted to maintain the balance of my life since 18 years ago. Well, now I'm 18 years of age. I may be young, but I still check on the latest updates, maybe from the source of newspapers, maybe from the internet. But whatever knowledge I've absorbed I tend to apply on different fields. Only time will tell if we the young Malaysians can make a difference. And, no more referring to us as the "future aspiring leaders of tomorrow". We don't want that label and pressure. We are just normal youngsters. Maybe a minority would want to serve the government, but for us common teenagers, we just want to fulfil the dreams that we have made. Thanks and good day.