Laughable somethings....

Ah, Hong Kong drama series. Most Malaysians now must have glued themselves to local television and following the storylines of a Manchurian era of Shanghai. For those who had more "advanced" technology(which in short, it is called Astro), they can wait until 8.30pm or 9.30pm to catch their favourite TV series. Hong Kong drama series had its ties with Malaysia for decades, tracking back to my mother's time (my mother is 52 years old now) where she and her family would gather together and silently enjoy their one hour. Even Malays and Indians enjoy watching Hong Kongers spill their emotions on the TV screen. However, how appealing it is to Malaysians about Hong Kong series, it is still unrealistic. Here I will point out a few EXTREMELY common scenes that will appear in those modern-era series and how it will never occur on Malaysian land.

Scene no.1 Boy wants to break up with girl. Girl refuses to let go. Girl fights and ends up getting dumped at the roadside. Girl finds cab and ask the cab driver to "drive around and around"


I'm sure the Malaysian bunch is more sympathetic and would drive the girl back home safely rather than dumping them just like that at the roadside, not with the crime statistics soaring up now and then. Even if you don't like the girl, you would still ensure that she is safe and sound no? Also, it is very hard to get a cab by just waving your hand unless you are in strategic places (and I mean very strategic) such as bus stops. Oh, and no "pak cik" will tolerate crying girls asking them to drive around and around until she's in the mood to go back home. They want to be back home too, especially after a long night. Or they could put a "fixed charge" of RM50 for 2 hours of roaming around. To them, moody girls don't care if they have to pay more, thy want to sit there and cry. Hmm, interesting idea.

Scene no.2 Boy finds girl with another man (presumably "the" third party) and follows her. Boy sees girl going in the cab with that man, so he finds a cab, and he asks the cab driver to "follow the cab in the front".


Another case which "pak cik" will not tolerate in Malaysia. Until now, I have never seen a case where a taxi follows the taxi in front just because the passenger demands so, though I will not rule out the fact that it DID happen, it's just my assumption. And when the driver tries to break the silence with the already depressed passenger (be it boy or girl), I think he'll get some noise pollution right from the passenger's mouth. But it doesn't matter anyway, as long as they get their pay. Do you know that in the Hong Kong series, they just pay you the big bucks without waiting for the change because they are so busy trying to follow their spouses and collect evidence of cheating? I'm sure that if that happens in Malaysia, "pak cik" will never bother to find the change while watching his estranged passenger secretly following the couple in front, shaking his head and muttering "youngsters....."

Scene no.3 Girl is depressed. She calls her best friend which is a boy (who coincidentally, had a crush on her). Boy finds her at the beach, and they began to talk it out at the beach.


I think scene no.3 really could not happen in Malaysia. If such scene happens it can only happen when both are on a holiday trip and the girl receives depressing news. But this is more towards geographic than anything else. Hong Kong is an island, therefore it is normal that they had beaches around because they are surrounded by the sea. Malaysia is also popular for its many beaches, but you would have to drive a few hundred kilometres before you actually reach a certain beach. By that time, you would be extremely exhausted. Talk it out at the beach? I'd rather sleep in a hotel before I help my friend sort this matter out. Anyways, the best place in Malaysia to sort things out is none other than the infamous "mamak stall". It opens for 24 hours, it has cheap drinks, and you can watch free football to change your topic every now and then should the sorting thing didn't work. A very good way to evade awkwardness.

Scene no.4 Buses that come punctually.


I would cry for this one. This is rarity in Malaysia. Buses that actually be punctual on each stations. Coming to the fact that the road and traffic conditions in Malaysia takes time to improve, we have to endure the dust and the smell of petrol from cars that speed pass us. But this is good. We can actually train patience, and for those who had no patience and lots of cash, taxi is the other option. With all those "patience" learned, I will be waiting for a long time before I lash it out at the authority who had such a bad timing and no time schedule. Shame on Malaysian authorities.

Well, this is all that I can summarise for common scenes in modern Hong Kong drama series, not thanks to fatigue. This explains why I like post-costume-history-monarchy era Hong Kong series. Modern ones are getting plain, that each series are the same, bearing the same storyline over and over again. But then again, I haven't been following Hong Kong series for quite some time, thanks to University and before that, part time job. So, rejoice for the Hong Kong series, because it has given us so much all time favourites all these years, and just laugh at my post. I'm just trying to make logical points for those who thinks that scenes in the series can occur in Malaysia. My conclusion is : It cannot be done. Thanks and good day.

Searching for a clue....

Once again, I'm impressed by how brains work. Those slimy strings dat were bundled up, becoming the source to how we deal with our choices, or even make decisions. It tells us to show our emotions, think, operates every movement, whenever we take a step forward. I don't even know are we like robots who listen to the commands under the object inside us. Brains.

And yet, when we are semi-concious, brains turn mischievous. It plays around with our mind and soul, sending us upwards or the opposite way, leaving us traces where if strong enough, we remember it. It's called dreams. Dreams that gives us clues on what is going to happen next, or dreams that fulfils our desparations, knowing that it will never happen in reality. Dreams that are so mystified, we would never want to wake up, but dreams of torture will have us begging to be back at our beds instead.

Those people that are full of fantasies and stories playing around their head, don't they ever get tired fantasizing? No I guess, because we are constantly going forward. Those who are smart would seize this opportunity to look around, in the end making up stories, even if it all happens inside them. But others who rush forward without looking would accuse that those who made up stories are liars or hopeless, even crazy. But look, we are living under the creations of fantasy everywhere! Movies and games does most of these fantasies true. It fulfils our desire to keep on dreaming. But are we done dreaming yet? Can we make those dreams true instead?

Many might freaked out. They weren't allowed to follow their dreams, and that includes those who survived the war era, teaching children the way to live is to make more money. They think correctly, because after a long war, Children should be taught to rebuild it. Now these children became parents, and when they try to pass down the same knowledge, it falls on deaf ears. The children now do not how to rebuild, because they don't understand WHY do they have to rebuild. They are staying in a place where they are happy, why would they want to change for the better? What the parents fail to do these days is to imply that same hope that their parents did to them. Children nowadays didn't see hope. All they see, was a continuation of fantasy in front of them. But will they realise their own dreams?

I'm also a dreamer. I dream of different things every stage of my life. I dreamt of happiness but it never came. I dreamt of freedom but it never came. I dreamt of a harmonious society but it never came. I dreamt and dreamt of myself perished in this world, floating above, watching this world destroy silently. But all this never turn real. So I gave up dreaming, there is no use doing so, because none of it will become reality. A couple of times when I see myself in a mirror I wish that my mirror image will just step out and live my life instead. I grew tired of dreaming. All I want to do is stay at my fantasy world, where I can wander around not worrying about anything. Everyday, a story plays in my head, wanting it to be formed into a paragraph or a novel. But now, all I see is pictures in my mind, I can't string them into words. It's too hard, or I'm just too lazy.

A few days ago, I dreamt of something else. It's not eerie, but I wonder why I dreamt that. A full solar eclipse, making the whole area dark, with a strange red glow surrounding the ground. I questioned everyone around me, no one can give me an answer. And I woke up, I realise, it's almost like a clue, or a memory. I don't know how to interpret it yet. But I know, or at least I guess, that had something to do about me in the future. Because it was just a silent solar eclipse with a red glow. No disturbance. Nothing.

I'm still searching for something. Maybe I'm searching for myself, maybe I'm searching for the adventure of searching. I want to continue on dreaming. But this time, I want to awake those dreams that I have made. I don't know how, but I want to try. Even if I don't get any chance, I'll make my own chances. Thanks and good day.

Believe, Beliefs, Trust, Truth.....

Well, here I am, resting after 14 weeks of studying plus 2 weeks of brain wrecking exams. And I took every opportunity of mine to sleep, read, surfing the internet, watching my favourite shows. And many of the shows, and what have I read, are stories which inspire me, because all of them show beliefs. Believe in yourself, believe in others; believe that there is hope, believing that all will end. And I wonder, so many types of beliefs are portrayed in television and newspapers, but the real people that are truly living in this world, did they feel the same way?

I'm not sure whether do I believe in supernatural beings, but most importantly I believe in myself. I don't know how and why, I can't make a decision right on the spot, because I will make a mistake, 90% of that always occur. For me, I need to plan and prepare with enough time, before I start. If there is not enough time, I might rush, causing my work to be a failure, or I might break down. This is me though. I understand what I am now. But, do I need to improve?

Someone said "you can never trust anyone 100%". I agree with that statement. I never trust anyone 100%. Which is why I try to get myself prepared, just in case anyone failed to finish, we had to follow up. And the truth. How hurtful it is, how much pain it has, how so many of them prefer not to know, so that they can hang on to their mast, when the ship is already sinking. That ship is reality. The truth, although it is not a melody, it is still a tune, a tune in a sombre mood.

As I am looking outside the window, the rain had stopped. The evening approaches. And here I am, sitting down here, listening to songs and adding a new post. This is me trying to get readers to believe in my topic, assuming that doubts will sure appear among readers, or whoever that is reading my post. I believe that in years to come, I will mature, and put my beliefs on spreading the truth. Thanks and good day.

Wandering about wonders, and I'm speechless....

Recently the police force had change the rule that traffic summons are lower than the previous ones. They said that this serves as an encouragement for people who had been delaying summon payments. But the Transport Ministry did not agree, and they had an open "argument" about the law. But, first things first, why did it take such a long time for the traffic law breakers to pay up their summons? Are the police force too lenient to them? Does the law have loopholes that these law breakers escape? Why is it that Transport Minister, Datuk Seri Chan Kong Choy, and the Police Force have different opinion regarding about abiding the law?

I begin to wonder whether is the government and the national security are stupidly fighting over something so small or something more personal.

A few months ago Dr Mahathir step up to criticise our Prime Minister, Datuk Seri Abdullah Badawi. citing that today's government is not like how it was supposed to be. Everyone is diverse, No one is willing to work for the country. Many of the leaders are backing our current Prime Minister, and shun away Dr Mahathir. His attempts of trying to be a leader is feeble, having just losing his position as a Kubang division member. Was I deaf when he said he wanted to enjoy his retirement? Was I feeling the hopelessness again when this two great leaders fight? Do I have to side with any of them, or just watch Dr Mahathir challenging he government while we commonfolk just sit there and watch the show?

I wonder if there is a third party that can bring us all united and have a new ruling over Malaysia, instead of these two.

Now that I had left the "protection" of education, entering the higher instituitions. I get exposed to the racial issues around me. UTAR being a political university? I think there must be some mistake. Sure, it is sponsored by MCA, but 14 weeks in UTAR suggests no political activities. I had too many fun inside UTAR, compromising of chinese, malays and indians. No political activities are available, just irritating counsellors begging us to join their programmes. I don't judge a person just because they are a malay or an indian. I had fun talking to them about the World Cup. So why are the rest of the Malays judging the Chinese community? Why do they look at skin colour before they make their decision? This happens globally, including Singapore, Indonesia, America, multi-racial and dominant countries. Will anyone don't look down at people with different colours?

I wonder if there is any chance of migrating to foreign countries, but since racial issues happen everywhere, I begin to wonder of problems occuring when I really have a career.

I wonder and wonder and wonder again. Why is it they put the blame on the minority? Just because they are the larger population does that mean that they have the power to do so? Just because they don't have the initiative to develop country that doesn't mean that they can stop others to do the same? Just because of perceptions can't we just change them and look at others in a different way? For your information, I'm always hated by some Chinese. Never Malay friends, never Indian friends. And I'm a Chinese.

I wonder whether should I even exist here.

I can only stay speechless, because I'm only 18 years old.

Thanks and good day.

Happy, Cheerful, Excited, True?

Ever wonder? What is love? Who are in love? How does love felt like? No answers? Correct. There shouldn't be an answer for love. So what are everyone's ultimate quest? Life or love?

Many people have been questioning what is the true happiness? Had not it been beside ourselves all the time? Family? Friends? Some might not have the privilege to enjoy family or friends. But for us simple and laypeople, why can't we be satisfied with family and friends?

We'd love a challenge. We love to know how many people are actually attracted to us. We are so obssessed, that we forgot how confused and tangled up it can be. We can lose them, we can lose the attraction. We might even lose our identity of who we are, and live under the shadows of people who we love and who manipulate us. That is what we call "change" where we change into someone who we aren't, and we longingly think back on how happy we were back then, when our identities are not destroyed by harsh reality or any other kinds of emotion.

I tend to preserve myself now. Loving myself more often. Loving my family members more and more. Hanging out with my friends with the best chance I have. I don't search for love. But I admit I will be jealous if others are lovingly towards each other, though after that I tend to feel sick with grossiness. But I don't know, just now, I felt it again. Like someone out there is protecting me. The feeling, is just like being hugged from behind. And the warmth is gushing all over in my heart. I don't know why do I have this feeling. Maybe someone out there is feeling the same way too. I don't know. Maybe I'm hallucinating, I don't know. All I know is, I feel very content just by having this feeling. It's satisfication. I don't ask for more. I know, asking for more I will not get the happiness I want. Just let everything go on by itself. I carve my own road to dreams, but I leave my road of love to faith. Faith will put everything into pieces. I'm not greedy.

Everyone, My friends, please know what do you want for love. Ask yourself questions what do I want from love. If you don't know, do not jump into the love trap if you are not sure. You'll suffer, and from that suffering you will leave a scar, mentally, emotinally. Happiness is always with you, it's only whether do you want to acknowledge that happiness beside, or continue on searching for your own, ignoring it. For me, I don't want to lose that happiness beside me. Thank you, my friends. Thank you, my family. I've found my own happiness because I have all of you. Looks like love can wait. Thanks and good day.

Celebrate the arrival of ANIMAX

I have countless times cry over the bad malay dubbing of animes (the popular term of Japanese animation) that was on Malaysian TV. Well, Astro was generous to provide great anime series on AXN. But I don't know since when they stop broadcasting those series. Once again, I drowned in my own tears, and I've stopped watching animes altogether, even developing amnesia on it. I have never mention anything about anime since then.

That was until I stumbled across my annual school magazine. As usual, I was flipping through the pages, and there I was, looking over a picture of a young man. The name, Tamahome. I felt a strike of thunder in my own mind. Tamahome, a familiar name. I went back home and check the Internet straightaway. And I found out that once upon a time, I was entranced towards that anime series, following their episodes everyday. That anime, Fushigi Yuugi. It bring me back those memories of the times where I watched most animes at AXN. But then, that was in the year 2001. I was only a 13 year old girl starting her secondary education. I'm not even computer savvy, so I don't really get in touch with the internet, and I'm sure that time broadband internet is so rare and expensive.

Later on, I went and search for more animes that I've remembered. Samurai X, the killer who swears never to kill. Slam Dunk, a story of how a rookie basketball team emerged to play in the national finals. Ranma 1/2, how can I forget that comedy anime? Insanely nice to watch. And since then I've been liking animes and mangas (japanese comics). And when The Star had a weekly board called "Otaku Zone" I was even thrilled. And now, ANIMAX has made an even better announcement. It is to be shown for 6 months, for free! It was as if my prayers have been answered. Those moans and groans that I've lamented for so many years, have finally been answered.

And so, on the first day of the screening of ANIMAX (which, coincidentally is our nation's Independence Day, and also my friend Kwan Liang and my sister's birthday), I sat there, waiting to watch some very cool anime series. I had a thing with hardcore animes, especially those that involved martial arts and swords. Blood is not necessary though. I admit, I was a tad bit disappointed when those anime series that I saw, were somewhat mild. They do have emotion, but not the type that I'm anticipating. So, I waited to watch those that were reviewed in "Otaku Zone" : Paradise Kiss, Honey & Clover. And I found that I wasn't all that disappointed at all. Although both have romance in it, I don't cringed about it. Maybe because it has half reflected on how our society really is. I also found an anime series I really like to watch, even though it wasn't reviewed in Otaku Zone. And that is The Law of Ueki. The show is weird to the sense that it's humourous. It is pass the message of loving the environment, because we don't have the ability to change trash into trees, so appreciate our greens now. Next, I pray that Wolf's Rain will be broadcast in ANIMAX within that 6 months free period.

Japanese animation, is one of those shows that are not to be missed, whether you like old school style, or modern guns, or just romantic anime series. Pick your genre, sit back, and enjoy your favourite animes. To me, I'll just enjoy laughing the funny parts. As for the romance, maybe, just maybe, they can help me fall in love again. Thanks and good day.