Wandering about wonders, and I'm speechless....

Recently the police force had change the rule that traffic summons are lower than the previous ones. They said that this serves as an encouragement for people who had been delaying summon payments. But the Transport Ministry did not agree, and they had an open "argument" about the law. But, first things first, why did it take such a long time for the traffic law breakers to pay up their summons? Are the police force too lenient to them? Does the law have loopholes that these law breakers escape? Why is it that Transport Minister, Datuk Seri Chan Kong Choy, and the Police Force have different opinion regarding about abiding the law?

I begin to wonder whether is the government and the national security are stupidly fighting over something so small or something more personal.

A few months ago Dr Mahathir step up to criticise our Prime Minister, Datuk Seri Abdullah Badawi. citing that today's government is not like how it was supposed to be. Everyone is diverse, No one is willing to work for the country. Many of the leaders are backing our current Prime Minister, and shun away Dr Mahathir. His attempts of trying to be a leader is feeble, having just losing his position as a Kubang division member. Was I deaf when he said he wanted to enjoy his retirement? Was I feeling the hopelessness again when this two great leaders fight? Do I have to side with any of them, or just watch Dr Mahathir challenging he government while we commonfolk just sit there and watch the show?

I wonder if there is a third party that can bring us all united and have a new ruling over Malaysia, instead of these two.

Now that I had left the "protection" of education, entering the higher instituitions. I get exposed to the racial issues around me. UTAR being a political university? I think there must be some mistake. Sure, it is sponsored by MCA, but 14 weeks in UTAR suggests no political activities. I had too many fun inside UTAR, compromising of chinese, malays and indians. No political activities are available, just irritating counsellors begging us to join their programmes. I don't judge a person just because they are a malay or an indian. I had fun talking to them about the World Cup. So why are the rest of the Malays judging the Chinese community? Why do they look at skin colour before they make their decision? This happens globally, including Singapore, Indonesia, America, multi-racial and dominant countries. Will anyone don't look down at people with different colours?

I wonder if there is any chance of migrating to foreign countries, but since racial issues happen everywhere, I begin to wonder of problems occuring when I really have a career.

I wonder and wonder and wonder again. Why is it they put the blame on the minority? Just because they are the larger population does that mean that they have the power to do so? Just because they don't have the initiative to develop country that doesn't mean that they can stop others to do the same? Just because of perceptions can't we just change them and look at others in a different way? For your information, I'm always hated by some Chinese. Never Malay friends, never Indian friends. And I'm a Chinese.

I wonder whether should I even exist here.

I can only stay speechless, because I'm only 18 years old.

Thanks and good day.