Back then, I believe........

In the year 2001:
- That I can still be a doctor if I ever concentrate on my science.
- That I can really make new friends
- That I can let go of my past
- That I can forget my primary school crush
- That my dad can be sane again
- That my dad didn't ever leave
- That I chose Harry Potter instead of Lord of the Rings as the first movie after my dad's demise is the right choice
- That 2002 will be a better year

In the year 2002:
- That my teacher is always true to her word
- That I found inspirational teachers
- That I thought I can let go of my dad
- That my mother finally showed her emotions
- That acting is my solace for life
- That I can't be a doctor when I'm so scared at looking at corpses
- That I am always a lonely girl with little friends
- That I'm always right
- That 2003 will be a better year

In the year 2003:
- That I don't need PBSM anymore
- That I found newer friends with funnier attitude
- That 3 Alpha was one of the best class I had attended
- That I finally scored high marks in Chinese Language Essay
- That Taiwanese boyband Energy was the greatest boyband alive
- That Jay Chou was actually cool
- That everybody is so crazy about Mandopop artistes
- That while I like acting, acting doesn't like me
- That I hated being poor
- That I wished I knew how to work
- That Chinese lyrics are very poetic
- That 2004 will be a better year

In the year 2004:
- That coming into 4 Alpha was the worst and wrong choice ever
- That I'll never be friends with classmates from 4 Alpha
- That I'm grateful to get Mr.Jacob because his legend was so well-known
- That people finally knew how good I am in English
- That winning the second award of best Chinese Essay is too flattering
- That I realise my own stupid mistakes
- That people just like to bully others, no matter is there reaction or not
- That "bitchy" and "fuck" is so understandably used now
- That depression took most of my life away for that whole year
- That I can make a living just by being a lyricist
- That Add Maths sucks when you have a lousy teacher
- That if I can really write lyrics I can be famous anyway, just like singers
- I'm disappointed that my friends changed
- That I think I found the love of my life
- That the year 2005 will be a better year

In the year 2005:
- That I want to volunteer to go to tsunami striked areas
- That I don't give no shit about Alpha friends who don't deserve my empathy
- That I can make him love me
- That my friend was hurt severely
- That my maturity had shown itself, although I'm still childish in every other way
- That SPM was one thing I don't want to go through again
- That I wished I had stayed with those kids in Rumah Hope
- That I can stay in FRIM and do a living by being there
- That I could consider going to foundation instead of form 6
- That I have true friends, who truly cared
- That I will die two years from now from emptiness and sorrow
- That being under the manipulation of a bastard is not worth it
- That I can create really incredible stories for people to read
- That I truly wish he didn't fall for another girl and hurt me badly
- That I shall never touched school balls or university proms for another five years
- That I wished I had hugged all my precious friends
- That I can finally leave this crappy school
- That 2006, will most definitely be a good year

In the year 2006:
- That working part time is tough
- That taking the JPJ test is tougher
- That I can truly forget the love I had for him
- That having 5As in SPM is good
- That choosing Foundation in Arts was the best choice ever
- That 2006 World Cup was really the best thing that bonds our mates
- That I had found really wacky friends to spend my year with
- That people who hate me for no reason has continued to appear
- That I'm a loud mouth and I have never cure that
- That lesbians, gays, emos, and desparados were something new to me
- That I can make time stopped at being in year 2006 because everything is fun
- That I don't need love and I can live my whole life being single with the right mind
- That my distance with my sister and brother were very apparent
- That the more I'm into university, the more I understand my mom
- That my sister having a boyfriend became some kind of jealousy
- That I finally get what I deserved: A passport
- I can travel more now
- That Singapore was great
- That the year 2007 will be one of those best years to accomplish what I need to accomplish for my goals

And now, year 2007 had come to an end, in the end, I accomplished......
- remaining close friends with my foundation mates even though I have a lover
- having someone who loved me from the inside, and not exterior-wise
- having Journalism was one thing I really enjoyed that combined Lyrics writing and English Language
- having more friends with more variety
- travel to more places like Penang, and most recently, Taiwan

And yet....
I lost a dear friend....

But I should attempt to.....
- forget Ephyon's haunting past on me
- become as healthy as possible
- be more tolerant and lenient on rules, regulations and relationship
- Achieve better results in MUET and my CGPA (not that its bad, but I want more)
- Continue to have a loving and fun friendship with all my mates
- create awareness among the youths to please please PLEASE make Malaysia a change
- be more aware of my image and start to wear something more appealing to self and audience
- enhance my vocabulary and language by reading more books.
- boost my general knowledge
- be more careful with handling my money

That's all for now, Wish everyone here, Merry Christmas, Happy New Year, and May the year 2008 make some changes upon you. Me as well. *smiles*

Thanks and good day

Sex, drugs, booze, videotape, Lies, western style.

Yes, yes. I know I know, Jamie Lynn Spears is pregnant at 16. Gasp all you want, shock all you want. I rolled my eyes when I saw that. Lets just say its another tradition of "Yay, another Hollywood Hot shot down". Sheesh, us Asian teens never get that kind of treatment if we get pregnant. Worst thing about getting teen pregnancy if it happened here, we'll have to give up our babies or kill them because we are not financially independent whereby our looks didn't rake in millions of dollars. If millions of faeces, maybe.

And the thing is, I don't really give a damn about whoever getting pregnant at such a young age. It is already a really routinic news we see from the West. You want big news? Find a Hollywood actor or actress who had been faithful for their spouse for more than 50 years. Now THAT's news! Or better, find a Hollywood actor or actress who are actually practising safe sex or keeping their virginity until they get married. And how ironic, everyone famous must have touched one of those stuff mentioned above before and after they become famous. Why? That appealing?

Or should I be one of them celebrities to actually acknowledged that stress made all those possible? And impression? And stupidity? I think some people just got too ditzy in their head and simply be retarded instead of making what they do best, whether is it singing or acting or talking. I don't know. I mean, something's wrong with the Generation X teaching Generation Y the old tricks. If you asked me, I think those laidback Gen X people are to be blame. Yea, and the baby boomers didn't help too being too old and wanting to be young yet remaining conservative.

Hopelessness of Hollywood is the cause of all these I'd say. And the only saving grace of it now is those foreign actors like Englishmen and Irishmen or Chinamen (yes, them too), that makes that famous place something to see. You got to give them producers and directors credit. They still see hope in these foreign men. American actors? Well, they are too busy doing what has been done on the four activities mentioned above. And Alot of them too. Yea yea, you may say that Englishmen are also ferociously perverted people, but hey, I'm looking at it in the large scale. Englishmen do it; American MEN and WOMEN do it. Settle.

Everyone is sure going to point fingers towards each other about the big question on everybody's head. "What the hell is wrong with society?". Who to blame eh? I don't know. Growth? Things just keep growing and things are getting out of hand. It'll be too soon before some idiot cracked under the unexisting growing pressure. But what's the cause? Time I'd say. Growth I'd say. But not men. Nope. No siree, won't blame men at all. They were the victims of civilization, so nope. Won't blame humans one bit about the mistakes they did to make our world filled with stupidity and disaster.

Whatever, not like I care what is going to happen to Jamie Lynn's future, now that she's almost ruined her career, and also having to risk an innocent boy pal of hers getting into jail. Ah, who cares? Screw it.....

Yep, I don't give a damn about Hollywood lifestyle. And as time passes by, Hollywood's not going to be big by being dirty. Somebody save Hollywood before it self-destruct.

Nope, I'm not going to be that stupid hero.

And they say.....

That every patriotic Malaysian should take one good look at the current World's Tallest Building - Taipei 101 when they go to Taiwan for a trip, and remember to spat or curse it. It is somewhat something we need to do, because our building is tallest if the twins were combined as one, and our building look so pretty.


Point is, are you sure?

Night view of Taipei 101

Normal view of Taipei 101

Personally, I didn't really did anything to actually curse it down. And apparently some people knew about this dissatisfaction by Malaysians about getting ripped of the grand title that made us a pioneer tourist attraction among the Westerners who had never heard of Malaysia in the first place. And oh, yea my friends said its ugly. But it was ugly for a purpose. And its rather superstitious which I think its "stupiditious". Want to know? Those who are my close friends will get to hear the stories first, but those who don't know me....errr......Make me tell you. Wahahahaha.

Ciao for now. I want to write up other posts that more significant.

Thanks and good day

I'm leaving for a trip to enjoy Taiwan.

Before I go, here's something for you to share with those whom you deeply loved. Be it your family, your best friend, your lover, your child, just share it. And mean it, only share it with those whom are irreplaceable in your heart. Go on, click it

http://clicks.aweber.com/z/ct/?lVlVzS5tMyOPnFAslnoaHg

If this makes you feel touched by it, if it makes you feel stronger and felt loved and appreciated, go ahead, and share this to whom you think needed the same kind of encouragement and love. You want to know who I send it to?

1. My mom
2. Ephyon
3. islander
4. Diana
5. Dylane
6. My cousin Estrial
7. Cheesatouillerie

People whom I want them to click on the link:

1. Bloodsuns
2. Reedo
3. Stephy See
4. Kid the Phantom thief
5. simpleteen

And those anonymous readers who are out there enjoying my blog. I have not post any links here before. This is my first, and hopefully not my last.

As for those 5 people, I have to explain something first. The reason why I didn't post to you the link even though you guys meant alot to me is because I don't know what is your current situation. (with exception from bloodsuns, that one my fault la). Though I trust that all of you will click on it, and spread this meaningful link to those whom you truly care. Those who needed guidance, love, those who are in despair, depressed. Those who are clueless, those who forget, those who ignore. Maybe this link can help. I don't know, but give it a try. Okay?

Alright, I'll see you soon here, on the 21st of December. Bye!

Who do you call? Blogger or Journalist? Or the Wordbusters?

Lame.

But seriously, if this issue is brought in the international level, we just might have to call ourselves the "Wordbusters" instead of the normal term "Journalist". Thankfully (or is it Pity?) that no one has brought that argument up yet.

What is a blogger? What is a journalist? As far as I recall I study this course to earn the better name of it, to work in the media organisations to write news stories, spread REAL truths. And when I graduate I'm going to share this name with some anonymous people who only has a technology box and a Internet connection that can probably reach the world, as much as a reporter can, probably even more, since Internet has no boundaries or laws.

But just before I continue to rant I really didn't know but since when did the blogger became the same as the journalist? Or is it the business opportunities behind the sharing of terms? You know, more news scoops, more insight news, more bribery, more corruption.......

ok not too far. But bloggers can do it, and in private.

That's the basic idea I thought that merge da two terms together. Fortunately (or unfortunately?) this term is not recognised in this country yet. That is why our very own rapper Information Minister was pleasantly aghast when Jeff Ooi is labelled an "Independent Journalist" when being interviewed by Al-Jazeera English. Well if he is the Information Minister, he should get all the Information. Sigh, maybe he should start surfing the net. I don't quite agree if anyone said that a politician is too busy. Our previous Prime Minister always take the time to read at least a book a day despite his busy schedule. Of course, no one can prove that unless it comes from the previous First Lady or something.

As far as I'm concerned I was quite taken aback with the term. Never mind that Jeff Ooi is a successful blogger, who has an INDEPENDANT blog, (hence giving him the title, and not who he's affiliated to). But shouldn't it be separated? I mean, yes, the media has tried to expand as far as to go to the Internet to spread news yada yada, but still shouldn't they leave the name to those who are working to earn that title? Okay, so maybe bloggers aren't exactly writing for free too, but they get the advantage of time and space, when journalists actually have to finish their work by the deadline. If not, no credit given, no money given. And at least bloggers don't need to attend weird events (Although Jeff and Kenny Sia proved otherwise, attending Pepsi-sponsored concerts and LG events respectively).

But who am I to rant and complain? After all, my current status is a student. I'm not a journalist yet. I don't compete with rival newspapers to earn the best scoop. I'm still not worried about having to lose to the Internet when people just stop reading newspapers and concentrate on the Internet. I don't have to learn how to edit my news as to make it sound casual when it is the most serious thing of the nation. I don't have to face rejection from authority, just negative comments from people who always prefer to be anonymous. Yea, I gave them that choice, they chose it. Losers, but whatever. You can't be angry over people dissing you in the Net. No boundaries remember?

In the end, I'd like to be both. A blogger, giving chronicles of life, not mine, maybe someone else; a journalist, telling what should be told to the public, acting as a storyteller. Strange how is it that we become intertwine with our blogging personalities. It is after all, who we partially are.

Anyone who'd like to comment about the merging of the terms? Or you prefer to address them separately?

As for me, I'll just screw the whole thing, and call myself a "Wordbuster". It sounds so much cooler.

Sign off

Wordbuster Cin