Warning: May content dissatisfaction

First of all, I may like to just make a statement.

As a student journalist, I will not take sides and will not look at people with a biased angle. I observe what I see. And I jot it down. That is all. I tell it as it is. It is entirely up to you guys to intepret what I've heard. I would have never change or edit it. Because this is what I see, what I hear, and that is all. This is what a journalist should do. And what I thought was to ensure there is a fair coverage. So that even the mainstream media did not cover the event, at least the amateur noob here will, with all the truth and nothing but the truth (cliched? exactly what I really want to tell to you).

However, as a civillian and a resident, of course I'd want to support one side to ensure that there's something starting to change in my country. I'm sick of seeing things happening again and again and yet nothing is done. However, my choice of covering the opposition was entirely out of my judgement of fair coverage. The reason was already stated above.

But another thing is, hello, stop stereotyping all students can or not? Just because my university I'm currently studying is unfortunately affiliated with the power political party that doesn't mean I was trying to be here to spy on you or trying to get some stupid information out of you. I know the law forbids that (or rather what they say about the law). I know some of you are working in Governmental-Linked-Companies, but don't worry. I don't take pictures of you like mug shots so that everyone can see your face. No one can.

It is very unfortunate to have (somewhat) political influence, but that only stays within the administration office. The students were here because they had no choice, either no money or no academics, so my university became the more better option there is here. And of course some lecturers were apparently hired that way. But let me tell this straight, most of them ARE NOT hired by any political party. I know so many of them did not get their pay or were delayed for three months. THREE months! That's suicide for anyone who doesn't save money, but yet those lecturers stayed on. Why?

BECAUSE THEY ARE HERE TO EDUCATE US TO THINK RATIONALLY AND MAKE THE RIGHT CHOICE! NOT BRAINWASH US TO SUPPORT AND FEEL GRATEFUL FOR THE POLITICAL PARTY!

I hope this answers everything to whom think my university was educating people to be biased. Or maybe if you have come across biased people, it's not because it was taught. It was already in their blood the day they were born. Or maybe they just choose to ignore about active politics and current issues and read about lala-lands and more hong kong, taiwanese stars.

I'm really sorry to point that out, but the majority of the students are really that ignorant. Save for Journalism students which is what I'm studying now. Then again, we are supposed to be informative. Extremely informative. But hey, if you don't even know what is going on, and what are general knowledge, you think you are going to survive being a broadcaster for entertainment news?

I know, because this is what most people aim to be. What the fish la I tell you.

Told you it contents dissatisfaction. So you can't sue me.

Stop all stereotypes and return education back to education, no more political affiliations. So sick of those. URGH!

If there's something I want to change, its these 2:

1) Remove any, and I mean ANY, political influence from all universities, except for those comprising of student leaders. So that they won't be any kind of stereotypes ever, neither in public nor private universities. As much as I felt grateful for the financial help, that is all they should contribute. Anymore and I swear I'll leave even though the Degree in Journalism course in that university is actually creditable.

2) Media freedom. Nuff said?

(Updated March 9th 2008: Earlier I was doing my assignment for my university, UTAR, and I was covering the event from DAP's point of view. And as all Malaysians know, MCA the powerhouse funded UTAR financially, hence being extremely affiliated with them, but had NO POWER controlling what we learn. I was covering Hannah Yeoh's Nomination Day. There were only 30 something supporters from DAP. And some of them were skeptical towards me based on where I'm from. Now that Hannah has won, I'm proud to say, I do not feel too sad for MCA, now lets hope she really will do something to change my area.)

Something else to share

If we can express as freely as they can, then you'll know we have changed. I think the process is under way. Wait for more posts regarding of this to come.

By the way, the song was good. Kudos to will.i.am.

This is getting nowhere

I wanted to put the title "This is getting out of hand". But then again, that will make me sound superior than the others. And I'm certainly not God. So I guess this title will do.

Before we go formal, would like to wish everyone to be happy even though "Happy Cliched Overrated Lovey Dovey Couples Love-In-Your-Face Day" is already over. Just always becareful with your decisions during that day.

Unfortunately some other people's decisions to be intimate go awry. Very awry. Awry to the fact that they fall for the same person, who likes to take pictures of intimacy, that got careless and now known as the most notorious sex scandal in the whole of Asia.

Yes, you know what I'm talking about. The cheeky looking playboy with a CBC (Canadian Born Chinese) bad guy attitude that goes around spreading the love to all the rising starlets. And in the heat of the atmosphere he decides to take pictures of them.

Sounds fine right? Who doesn't do that to their girlfriends now? It's so common I wouldn't be surprised that it'll be the future documentary of the generation. Problem didn't stop there. It's just that whenever he stop being with one starlet, he still stupidly keeps those photos. Or videos for that matter, since those photos looked like video stills.

So in the end, 13 starlets, 7 revealed, 6 remain hidden are now one the most talked topic for almost a month now. And in my opinion, we are not going to see the end of it. Everybody's looking for the pictures despite the playboy's pleas to delete them. That triggered more people to look for them, the whole phenomenon didn't die down. It just gets worst every minute.

And out of those 7 victims. 2 of them had their marriage wrecked, one of them remains standing, and the others have nothing whatsoever. They were not famous in the first place. But one thing for sure, this playboy, is going to be in big trouble.

Personally I felt those starlets were rather the worse hit victims in this whole scandal. I mean, marriages, wrecked over a bunch of intimate photos which were taken years ago. By right, if we follow modern mentality (Yes, including conservative Asians mind you) it shouldn't and will not be an issue. It's in the past. Okay? There is some kind of risk that your past boyfriend happen to be a sick bastard who likes to take pictures. What they didn't think of was that he'll keep it for weird kinds of entertainment purposes I presume.

But on the other hand, if, and I said, IF, playboy wasn't someone famous in the Asian region, would anyone care if they had one thousand photos of him with different ladies? Probably not.

The only thing I'll wish to all of those involved:

Playboy: Good luck with protecting your life
2 married starlets: Good luck with making your marriage work
Single starlets: Good luck with your career. You might go into porn
Hidden starlets: Good luck with the poster's mood. Or, you could admit yourself first before your photos come out.

Now you know how serious we look at sex. Immorality apparently, is still within the heads of the authority. Not that promiscuity is looked up upon. But how do you frown upon a girl, who is clearly over 21, clearly enjoying herself when the pictures were shown when she was succumb to those acts, made her admit that she was "stupid", "clueless", "naive" over this? Do you (Pointing to her management company) think we were THAT stupid? That she never had a sex life during her whole career? That she was supposed to be 20 year-old girl-next-door-remaining-virgin?

And even then, she have never claimed she was a virgin or had never had sex. It was you guys who made that image up. So is she supposed to claim responsibility for what she had done? Is she supposed to step up and claim that it was her fault for being stupid when you are the one who designated that image for her? Or maybe, like speculations say, you are just framing all these stars because they were too arrogant and stupid that you think you should killed their career and personal lives as well?

Well done, "Kira", you done everything well. And just like Light Yagami in Death Note, you have strategically planned everything well into your head. Too bad, humans can't be prosecutors for you. Too bad, I can't wish for a shinigami (Death God), to suddenly appear and wrote YOUR name instead.

It was because of you "Kira", that this matter, which was supposed to be a personal problem, turned publicised and nasty.

Conclusion: This is getting nowhere. There is no solution.

PS: to those who still love, forgive, forget, compromise. It may not be entirely her fault either.

One.

The first time I blogged, I questioned my angel. I wondered when will he appear.

8 months later, I found him.

Process wasn't great. Angels were so hard to pleased. Then again, they came from a different realm. They won't fly away, they won't hit me. They sulk and cry.

And that hurts the most to women. If angels start crying, then the women, us, the passive lovers, will be even more grief-stricken.

So we stop treating them like angels. They came here, they are supposed to adapt to our culture. Hence, we dare to call them humans, with equal status as we do.

But humans have emotions.Hence, It's another crucial battle that didn't involve swords and knife that pierced through the body physically, but sacarsm, insults, that pierced through the hearts, brains, emotions and wit. Humans just turn stupid over fights.

Ephyon turned from an angel into a human. And he likes to be a human now. Notice how all of us are angels in our first few encounters together? Dating? I was so reluctant of scolding him, I just let him do what he wants. He too, let me do what I want.

Then emotions run high, it was so hard to not offend him without raising my voice when I had something that needs to be done. I think he found the same kind of problem with me too.

Nowadays we just voice it out without giving second thoughts, that hurts too, somewhat.

But why do I voice out the negativity first? Love was supposed to be splendid is it? Yes but unfortunately the times in university were sort of crucial and if you ask me to count the number of times we actually had fun, I can only give 2. Shopping malls, movies were just a relief of stress. I'm sure Ephyon agreed. I mean, I asked him personally.

But nevertheless, one year has passed and that guy is still stuck with me. He likes me like that. I like him like that too. Women are hard to please, and I am like that, sort of. Yet everytime I gave him a choice, he just chooses to stay with me.

Now that one year mark has gone, I stopped giving him the choice. It's unnecessary now for our relationship has long gone it's honeymoon periods. But yet, I still find new things to explore about him. After all, he is the reason I won such an expensive bottle of perfume from hundreds of comments.

Ephyon, I know my writing's kind of random now, because I prefer spur-of-the-moment kind of blog post for important people like you. But this is how I like to write I guess. Love, I thought I'm never worthy to have it. But you proved me wrong, again and again. You seem to have problems, but those problems were so petty you could've solve it yourself anyway. But yet you share your problems with me, wondering how to solve it.

Now I know. You just love my company don't you?

And I love yours too.

Ephyon had said his three words. And now I'll say mine.

I...



Want...



SEX!!!



XD




Random right?


okay, I love you too.

One year has passed by just like that

One year has passed by just like that; it seemed just barely a few days ago we became an item…

How time flies eh?

This is the 1st time I’ve ever written on a blog before, and I never had the patience to start a blog of mine cause I was simply too lazy, but for our one year anniversary she requested me to write a post signifying it’s importance… Ah well, only for you then love…

We’ve been through a lot this past year or so, lots of ups and downs.

I’m still not sure how exactly we became an item, it just happened. But I know for one thing is that I never regretted it. Being with you love has been great, I can’t tell you how much I appreciated having you by my side, having you to be there when I needed you most…

I’m not the best guy around, nor am I the easiest guy to live with, but despite all that you are still here with me, loving me, for that I am grateful. Thank you for loving me…

And so we have shared a year of togetherness,
We cried together,
We laughed together,
We cared for each other,
We teased each other,
And most importantly,

We love each other.

I guess it just boils down to those three magical words that hold more power than the might of the sun.

I love you.

-By Ephyon

You know your dragon luck has ended when....

Everything that you plan just go awry.



That's exactly what I felt. Everything I had planned the past month had all crumbled and failed. Everything became a random plan. Became something impromptu. And I hate impromptu planning. You don't know how the results will turn out. Some might be just so fantastic you congratulate yourself for being the best impromptu planner in the universe. But on the other hand, if things turn bad, you'll just dig the deepest hole and bury yourself. You can count on others to throw back the pile of sand back to that hole of yours. And I, always never prepare for the worst.



That is why I felt like screaming, and my mom comes back with newly implemented Feng Shui knowledge (note: It's Joey Yap) that the Dragon luck ends, it's an average year for the Dragons this Rat Year. Whee, just what I want to hear, when everything I need goes down the drain.



I don't fully believe on Feng Shui and Crystals and all that (regardless of what you guys who know me and my accessories), I tend to realise how much percentage of truth is there regardless of the rumour and phony sentences. It could be a wild guess no? Like a "Deal or No Deal", "Wheel of Fortune" game show. Or maybe a visit to the local seer for fun when it reveals the worse of the kind of truth.



Sounds interesting yet predictable. I give any kind of psychiatrist the same thing and they can chant the same bull crap over, and people STILL believe them. All you have to do is observe. Observe surroundings, observe facial expressions, observe body language, obeserve movements. It's that easy, but what most of us lack is that mental concentration. And who knows, maybe you will be bestowed with the gift no?



But anyways, back to the topic. You see, I had alot of things planned out, you know, how to get my finance, my budget, and all that. Then, my mother says that I have to use that money for the car-that-was-never mine. Fine, then, I planned alot for my 1 Year anniversary, including actually wanting to publish a blog post written by me and Ephyon. Then, his PC broke down. Fine, then, I wanted to play God of War and God of War II since I had a new TV with a bigger screen, but every game shop I go to don't sell PS2 games anymore. FINE! then, tomorrow is the big day, mine and Ephyon's big day, but he can't get the car. And what's supposed to be a celebration well until 10pm now has to be cut short by 2 hours because Ephy's going to drive MY car, back to MY house, then take a BUS back to HIS.



You tell me, is this bad luck or what?



Oh and not forgetting that one fine day that everybody parking illegally no thanks to the inefficiency and lack of parking spaces provided by my university, that for the first time I had a traffic summon which I cannot pay until after Chinese New Year. Yes, that's what the traffic police said. AFTER Chinese New Year. Simply because they didn't record it down, we cannot pay it early.



ATROCIOUS! Have you ever heard of things like that before??



And don't even get me started on the fact that I haven't get my second batch of government loan while all my friends are happily pressing their ATM finding that their money is already in.



My luck has sincerely ended. In a very bad way.



Happy 1 year anniversary indeed. The turn of luck (or chinese year) occurs on every February the 4th, what a coincidence, if you know what I mean.



I'll write a better tribute of my 1 year with my guy when my mood is better, and when his PC comes back.



But for now, here's my tribute to all bad luck feelers out there.



Courtesy of Kenny Sia, the starter of tulan-ness.

Something wrong is on the air

Example:

Something's wrong with me. I get angry easily. And (as what Ephyon constantly accused) taking it out on Ephyon. Maybe it's nearing my PMS, again. Like always. With the emo-ness around I just feel like a running tap water

I also want transform to emo wall

Pumped up too much I guess. It IS degree life after all. Stress is really building like it's not supposed to be there. Now whenever I talked with my friends in Foundation we were all reminicing our 1 year of bliss. Not an entire bliss, but, you get my point. Foundation is my happiness. Everyone agreed with it. I have never seen anyone who said their Foundation year was bad. It was so blissful everyone who went through and got to degree all loved Foundation. Do I hear aye?

Another example:

Premature deaths gripped me I guess. I don't really know who was the girl who died. It was scarcely related to all youngsters I guess. You know, fresh friendships, loving relationships, those bonds are still strong as always. And yet when these bonds are going strong, the life ends abruptly. How do we respond to such abruptness?

But best guess is that everyone is angry with the bus driver. He's still alive, with only a broken leg. While 3 bus passengers died, a few serious injuries and many more with minor injuries. Many claimed that they saw him using the handphone while driving.

it won't be so cute if you changed the kitten to a full grown bus driver with a broken leg and 13 summons now is it?

I bet you that no one is going to forgive the bus driver. As if last year's bus tragedies are not enough, lets hope that this girl can bring forth light to enhance bus security. Lets hope they can really give a really good explanation on the sudden lax of inspection.

For more information, please visit http://buscrashnomore.blogspot.com/.

Rest in peace girl.